damian + turion

[220407] highs, lows, a heavy heart

the weekend's finally over... been over a month since i've worked all 3 days during the weekend... bottomline is, i cant sustain this kind of life, 5 days in camp, 3 days working leaving no time for myself... firrdaus worked his first 2 days at marche, guess he's doing fine, with so many former colleagues of his at marche, really shouldnt be much of a problem...

Friday was surprisingly quite ok, wasnt too many people but one thing had all the guys talking, it was an exceptionally good looking crowd on friday... there were many and i really mean many, eye candies that night much to the delight of the wolves behind the main island... lol... straight forward work... saturday came and gone, reached outlet and was informed of Raymond's chalet to celebrate his wedding... no choice, most of the crew going so after work hopped onto our convoy of 5 volkswagen taxis and headed to Paris Ris Costa sands... which turned out to be wrong... alamak, salah address, sianz... walked back out to NTUC Downtown East...

close to 20 of us reached Block J #1916 and immediately the festivities started... Poison available: Tiger Beer, Johnny Walker Black Label, Chivas Regal 12 years, Chivas Regal 18 years and finally an assortment of red and white wines... i just picked up the green tea and drank myself silly... didnt touch the alcohol nor the food.. just sat there and chatted with Auntie Alice, Raymond, Jeff, Jaffery, Jimmy and Raymond's wife... halfway through, kenna hushed by the people in the unit above us... then security came down asking us to lower our music volumes and noise... geez, who ever books a chalet and then goes to sleep? crazy people... oh well... left early and concussed for 5 hours before heading to work again...

been such a long time since i did Sunday Brunch Shift... crowd wasnt too bad... 2 hours before knocking off, bumped into her... kindda stunned for like 1, 2 seconds staring at each other before acknowledging and exchanging pleasantries... she's still the same i guess... lost all mood for work after that... started to feel down and heavy hearted, so that's how it feels like seeing ur ex with somebody else... ouch. there's a kind of awkwardness in the short conversation that we manage to engage in, a kind of awkwardness that shouldnt exist between good friends, erm... wouldnt exactly be able to confidently classify her as a close friend nor a good friend seeing that we are seldom in contact these days... an acquaintance of sorts? It would then be too drastic a drop in the relationship, hell i dont know where it stands... a close acquaintance or a friend? perhaps in this context, FRIEND. it'll do... it'll have to do...

luckily only left 2 hours of work, last 30 minutes was a killer by the time i left marche dressed in my civies, felt so drained... emotionally and physically... concussed on the train and decided to pay a visit to tcc seeing that i had time to kill before watching the Chelsea-Newcastle game, met up with Maria and just chatted away with some old colleagues, the 45 minute chat made me felt alot better, brought the focus away from my lingering thoughts.

The match gathering was a much needed pick me up... excellent turnout of over 30 lads and lasses with a great atmosphere to boot, great resilient performance from the lads to hold chelsea at bay even managing a few good wasted chances to win the game ourselves... been too long since i've lost my voice singing during matches, yep, this was a gathering to remember, if it's the last of this season, we definitely went out with a bang.. cheers to all who came...

now i need sleep, stray thoughts be gone... i just want to sleep, rest and forget... that im still lost in transition...

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