damian + turion

[060208] 'Tis the season to be jolly *NOT*

Yaaaaaayyyyyyy, chinese new year is here aggggggggaaaaaain (note the lack of enthusiasm in the tone of voice). Only note worthy thing about CNY is the 2 day long Public Holiday and of course, the ang pows. (hey, im just being practical.) Main thing about CNY has always been the ang pows, house visiting and gambling but unlike other common singaporeans, the majority (read: 99.99%) of my blood relatives are in Indonesia, ONLY a convenient 3 - 6 hours away (By air, car/train) depending on which relative im visiting.

So CNY has always been a rather dull affair. House visits are massive fun, hanging out with friends talking cock and catching up over lunch or dinner when YOU'RE invited that is. Gambling, well gambling's fun too but it has never been my forte and i wouldnt expect that to change anytime soon but what the heck, a little gambling never hurt anybody (unless you're betting in amounts running in 3 or 4 digits) I'm just looking forward to the long weekend where i can just slack.

Still abit sore about not working, wished i was but company doesnt pay 1.5 pay on PH so screw 'em. One thing that seriously pisses me off during CNY is the songs they keep on looping over and over again in every friggin' store that you visit. The new year songs simply pisses the hell out of me. I appreciate the fact that they're trying to bring up the atmosphere of CNY but to hear the same old songs (which i might add are not very pleasing to my ears) every single place i go simply drives me crazy. It doesnt help the fact that my dad seems hell bent on driving me crazy when im at home as well, whistling away the CNY tunes. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP man. jeez, next thing you know, you go clubbing on CNY and they probably play a Gong Xi Fa Chai club remix or something. READ: OVERKILL. Too much of a good thing kills but so does anything. Too much of anything kills.

Too much time on my hands is a bad thing, i'd rather be pre-occupied with something so that my mind don't wanders. I hate it when my mind wanders, too many flashbacks, too many things that i un-necessarily worry, fret or think about and of course, too many doubts in my mind. argghhhh... any distraction pls. been a long while since i've blogged, so there you have it. A pre CNY post.

Staind - So far away

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

Yesterday's memories