damian + turion

[180709] Reflections

People should take time out of their busy lives to reflect on their lives every once in a while. sadly for most, they dont have the luxury of such 'time' to spare, hence they go about their lives everyday, every hour, every minute, every second according to their timetables, their schedules, their rosters meaninglessly, mindlessly without direction and aim.

unlike most of my peers, i have the luxury of having lots of free time, this would be to most people a blessing but alas for me, i find it to be a curse at times. Sure, i enjoy time off from work, who doesnt? But when the time is spent mostly in isolation and in silence, it gets to you, eats at you, gnaws at your very being and makes you just downright depressed at times.

I think all this is self induced, a simple sms to friends would suffice, a gym buddy, someone to have lunch/dinner with or someone to watch the movies with but everyone's busy these days, they have their own lives, their own commitments and simply put, our schedules always clash. Due to these factors however, most of the time, I end up not looking for friends to go out with at all... too much of a hassle and trouble so I go the gym, I go the movies, I have my lunch and dinners and life goes on.

turion in a world of black and white surrounded by the deafening silence...

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