damian + turion

[070506] Feeling the blues...

Cant really explain it but i've been feeling blue these couple of days... the feeling comes and goes but overall been feeling down, sad and frustrated. I dont even know the freakin reason for it... it's as though im suffering from mood swings... geez... sometimes, i feel alright but all of a sudden the blues just descend and my mood immediately plummets...

I've been thinking these couple of days... conversation between 2 parties, be it between friends, loved ones, colleagues or couples... the simple act of conversing, is it really that simple? Am I a good person to converse with? Sometimes, I look around and see that everyone's talking while im just hanging around the back... silently looking on...

It's hard to reach out i guess or even to make the first step to talk.. and even if a conversation is started, how do you carry on? Sometimes as I converse, i feel as though, the topics to talk about are meaningless and talking and the very act of conversing almost becomes a chore... to the point that sometimes, i just prefer to just hang back and be left alone with my thoughts...

It's hard to relate to someone and even harder to 'click' with another... "The most complex event to occur on a daily basis is the meeting of 2 human beings" How true are the words behind this quote... sighz...

Have you heard a saying that people who can make other people laugh make good companions, friends and your significant other half? But I look at people all around me and at work and see practically, everyone's able to crack jokes, make people smile etc etc... so, what's the difference? there isnt any to begin with i think.. it's all the same and the saying's wrong... i mean, almost any guy can make a gal smile or laugh... i've yet to meet a person who doesnt have the slightest of abilities to make others laugh or at least smile...

Nsync - gone
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you doYeeaah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me

Oohhh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....

Yesterday's memories