damian + turion

[241106] Yet another phase...

It's all over... finally... exactly 10 weeks and a day after i enlisted, i passed out from Basic Rescue Training as a qualified rescuer and got promoted to the rank of private. Somehow, in a strange way... there was no real sense of happiness or joy as i marched out of the parade square during the POP parade...

Strange? Unlike other events like when i passed out as a NCO or a CI, the feeling was vastly different... The feeling was more of a 'oh, yea... pass out liao'... no real sense of excitement... just seemed like another day... draggy and such... woke up early and prepared for the 10km route march.. the march itself was darn boring but what should i expect seeing that most of my company mates arent really bothered, even when i tried to boost and raise morale through songs... but only a few responded, felt quite demotivated during the march itself...

Straight up was the SOC followed immediately by the Passing out Parade... in long 4, with field pack and helmet... feeling was darn weird with the helmet which was 1) uncomfortable 2) hot and 3) darn ugly... i wondered who ever came up with the grand idea that we as recruits should pass out in this manner of attire... seems to contridict the very notion of the grandeur and gracefulness of parades itself...

I got the Company Best recruit and Battalion Best recruit award, kinnda happy that my efforts and performance was acknowledged and recognised but somehow i dun seem to feel much pride in the award itself... perhaps it's due to the fact that i know that in CD, it isnt really hard for one to be outstanding and seem to be performing above the rest when most of the recruits arent really bothered to begin with...

Posting: Rescuer (A COY)

Yep, got posted back to A COY as a rescuer or in other words, got posted back to Alpha Company as an instructor... somehow this entire notion of passing out, the awards and the posting trend seem to carry on... i dun seem to feel any excitement or joy... while others were happily enjoying their day off today, i booked in at 0730 to begin my life as an instructor with the glamourous task of cleaning up the training block... yep.. the glamourous life of an instructor indeed...

Another phase in life is about to begin... one in which i feel the ultimate siansation... life at BRTC as an Instructor.. yet another phase of my NS life... one in which i hope bears fruit... many things to learn, so little time... 18 more days til BRTC Alpha Company 102nd Intake

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