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Thursday, October 27, 2005

[271005] My room and house is in a mess! Yep, ladies and gents, my room and house is officially in an utter state of messiness unlike any experienced before.. man, i have my living room table, my bicycle, my mum's exercise bicycle, mum's osim iSqueeze and my computre cramped into my already small bedroom... it's ridiculous i tell ya.. adding on to the mayhem is the couch being all taped up with covering and newspaper. All this mayhem cause my living room floor tiles for some perculiar reason popped up, resulting in the replacement of tiles this very day.. at least the noisy part is over and done with.. the contractor (my neighbour) now laying the cement mix before the tiles come on.. (wonders if it'll be finished by the end of the day?)

Anyways.. same routine today, Computer, TV, Computer... nothing much to report in my mundane life... Heading back to school tml for forward module registeration at 0900 hrs at T241 or was it T421? heck, i'll surf the CLS webby later for confirmation followed by meeting with kelvin and ke hin over at unit at 1000 hrs afterwhich campcraft training will begin once again at 1430 hrs with the sec1s joinining the team, first team having sec1s in Campcraft team but hopefully they'll be able to cope.. good news is that the gals, Yuka, Yuki and Michelle along with one more gal (cant remember her name) are quite committed.. hopefully they can keep up the enthusiasm though only time will tell.. (most cadets start to tire of the shouting, scolding and drilling ard sec2-sc3 period)

After everything, heading over to Norm's place for the inaugral CCK Winning Eleven Invitational at Chua Chu Kang. Should be a blast with Norm, Keith, Kenn, Robin, Keegan, Hendrick, Roger and Me... haha.. gonna stake my claim for the championship.. bring it on fellas... guess that's about all.. the dust's killing me as well.. luckily can hide in the room with the AC on at full blast.. but so cold that im wearing my sweater now.. lol.. cold lah but damn shiok..

guess that's enough ramblings for today... Cheers.

turion at 15:29

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

[261005] Listening to Luo Zhi Xiang's Zhen Ming Tian Zhi (eh.. kinnda hard to translate.. erm.. The One?) , Yi Wu Shuo You (translates to having nothing) & Zi Wo Cui Mian (Self-hypnotise) except for the first one, the remaining 2 are all slow ballads.. my kinnda music.. im a sucker for lovey dovey, sobbing love songs or ballads.. haha.. oh well.. darn nice songs.. will be uploading them up and putting them on the blog.. so stay tuned ya?

Nothing much goin' on these few days.. slacking at home as usual... staring at the comp the whole day.. my typical time-table for these couple of weeks includes waking up between 0900-1030 hrs, first things to switch on are my computer and handphone. Check emails, blogs and forums for activities before logging on for games or listening to music followed by brunch ard 10+ usually cook mee or something too darn lazy to go out for proper meals.. then 1130 watch tv, used to be Designer Guys (i know, i know they're a bit gay but their designs for the rooms are spectacular.. wish i could have them do up my room or house... haha) nowadays showing Opening Soon, which captures the ambitions of restaurateurs, the bustling staff and the inevitable crises that surface before opening the hottest new restaurants. Go behind-the-scenes and into the heart of the action for every step of the process, from designing the space to opening night!

Strange enough, it is a very entertaining show and by watching this show, you can fully grasp the concept of Murphy's Laws... Let's review murphy's laws again shall we?

  1. If anything can go wrong, it will
  2. If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong
  3. If anything just cannot go wrong, it will anyway
  4. If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which something can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop
  5. Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse
  6. If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something
  7. It is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious
  8. Nothing is as easy as it looks
  9. Everything takes longer than you think
  10. Every solution breeds new problems
so.. food for thought ya ppl.. signing off.. cheers!

turion at 22:48

Monday, October 24, 2005

[241005] Monday night... 24th Oct 2005, guess spring cleaning came 2 months plus early as i embarked on a spring cleaning of my room and general study area this morning... threw out 4 huge plastic bags worth of notes, books, papers and what have yous... tons of stuff... lotsa memories too...

of the different modules taken thus far, AP Chem, IO Chem, A & P, microbio... the list goes on and on... and looking back, i have trouble remembering any of the stuff i've learnt... so a round of applause to the supposedly world class education i'm getting. enough to last til after the examinations are over but will never stay with ya long enough.. of course how came across modules that i've failed, Mol Bio (1st failed module), BIA, Mol Gene & BioStats... kindda depressing, shld have been over and done with, this diploma of mine, guess im lazy and dun really give no shit about how everything turned out.. oh well...

why does a student study? Guess it's a no-brainer but why do we study?

To Learn?
To fulfill our dreams?
To be better than the rest of the pack?
To fulfill our ever present thirst for knowledge?
To obtain the passport that assures a good life with a decent job, pay and stability with the educational credentials?

or do we just do it cause we have to.. cause we must, cause it's the norm? cause it's what our parents want us to do? cause our govt only recognises paper qualification? cause education really does educate us? I'll be the first to admit, we have to study... how could we afford not to? when the doors slam straight in your face if you dont have relevant educational credentials... questions questions quesitions and yet no answer in sight...

6 more days to re-opening of school
4 modules left
2 semesters overdued
1 diploma
passport to life...

turion at 23:09

Sunday, October 23, 2005

[231005] Juz reached home after heading over to fluid's to meet the lads for the Mackems game.. haha.. In the end, won 3-2 but still very shaky defending from our backline (Boumsong) let us down.. really can suffer from heart attack watching him and Faye while they're with the possession of the ball.. same thing, voice break and gone liaoz from all the screaming, shouting and singing.. haha.. oh well... need to snooze soon..

so i guess that's about it... kindda boring ya? anyways... HTL!!!

turion at 23:54

[231005] Sunday morning, nothing much worth mentioning for the past 2 days... friday night went out with Yao Hui and Jun Jian to walk ard suntec area... haha.. also nothing much to see.. then went to Suntec Starbucks and slacked.. darn comfy, their sofas.. then went to meet Qin Hao for supper and went back to his place slack and TCS.. Rui Fang also joined us.. they started planning for their Operation Enjoy, their proposed trip to Taiwan next year as they're about to ORD.. damn shiok lah.. but most prob i would have only jus enlisted... recruit Peh... lol, talked til about 2 plus in the morning then went back..

Woke up at 0600 hrs on saturday and prepared to head down to HQ for Campcraft Competition Planning Commitee meeting.. in the end, the entire meeting started at 0900 and ended at 1400 hrs.. as there were alot of discussions for the proposed new format.. we had to try out the competition segment.. talk about being a guinea pig. Saw a lot friends from J05 CIIs, Nelson, Clara, Ho Ling and others, and newer CIs as well.. haha.. oh well.. new friends eh..

Meeting up with the lads for Mackem scums - Newcastle derby.. gonna be a hell of a game.. bring it on, Mackems Bastards!!!

HOWAY THE LADS!!!

turion at 09:58

Thursday, October 20, 2005

[201005] almost midnight now... nothing to do at home, chatting with some friends over msn.. just finished watching 23 episodes of Gundam Seed.. darn nice anime... thanks Yok for lending me ur friend's copy.. haha.. just one more week before school reopens.. kinnda sianz.. haha.. oh well.. that's life for ya..

life is boring and meaningless these days.. ZZzzz

turion at 23:56

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

[191005] I passed all my modules from last semester... meaning i only have 4 modules left next semester!!! Finally, it's really my LAST semester liaoz.. guess i wont be seeing any of the other FM students liaoz.. See Ying, Ben and Damien.. smaller classes next year without 4 ppl.. will miss them i guess, known them for so long liaoz then being FM students.. haha.. bonded man..

CP2050 INTRODUCTORY BIOINFORMATICS - A
LC0206 ORAL COMMUNICATION - B
CP2023 BIOPROCESS ENGINEERING - C
CP2056 PLANT BIOTECHNOLOGY - C
CP2022 ANIMAL CELL CULTURE - C+
CP2055 GENOMIC TECHNIQUES - D-


been a long long time since i've gotten such good grades, only 1 D some more.. haha.. ok, good grades are subjective to each individual, for me, getting a pass is considered good i feel.. bahz.. study too much liaoz.. sick of it.. feel really lucky, as i collected my 4th or issit 5th subsidary pass... for those of u who dun know, subsidary passes are given to students that fail a module but are allowed to pass after discusssions with all the lecturers.. so big shout out to the lectuerers... *phew* really got me scared as i waited for the darn SAS thing page to load.... took freakin long lah...

IF SP (Yes, you SP webby adminstrator) wanted the students to check their results online, common sense and logic tells you that you'll have to cope with the additional traffic flow when 0830 hrs comes about.. BUT NOOoooooooo... apparently the whole systems slows lags and jams... i started logging at ard 0834 plus minus a couple of mins but i only entered the god damn SAS page at ard 1035 or something like that.. 2 freakin hours.. wasting my time seriously.. dumbasses..

Onwards to my last semester...

turion at 10:31

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

[181005] Just came back from Campcraft training with the Campcraft team, disappointing turnout.. sighz, shall not dwell on it.. anyways, it's been 3 days since saturday, and im still burnt.. skin on the face peeling like mad now.. look damn freaky as though i have some skin disease, best part is the skin on my forehead still hasnt started peeling but it's damn tight lah, when i frown, almost like the skin on an elderly folk.. all wrinkly and such.. worse still is i feel my face like so plastic and tight.. grrrzzz....

Back still giving a lot of problems.. hurts and best part is just now under sun kenna exposed again came back, back now got some small blisters on the right shoulder.. arggghhh.. somebody please just kill me... i dun care no more.. nothing much to say or do.. boredz... ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

been listening to Luo Zhi Xiang's (Xiao Zhu) - Hui Se Kong Jian which translate to roughly grey space... darn nice song, would upload the lyrics if only blogspot would support chinese characters.. for some reason, when posted chinese characters came out as jibberish.. oh well... you guys can hear the song from the song list, towards the bottom under Alan Law.. that's about all i guess...

14.5 hours to the revealing of my fate...

turion at 18:08

Monday, October 17, 2005

[171005] Black Temptation, Unveil your dark side with the black Nokia 7270. No ladies and gents, im not doing a free advert for Nokia, but just thru the "buy damian a new handphone fund" i've been able to buy my dream phone yesterday.. haha.. still drooling over the new phone.. haha.. cant believe that it's actually mine now.. though im now like 300 dollars poorer.. haha..

My next fund raising is towards a most charitable cause... do show ur show ur support lads and lasses.. no no no, it's not for some dumb SP river raft thingy, what a waste of time and money.. it's for *drum rolls* "Buy damian new kai kai shoe fund" so any takers?? haha...

still sun burnt.. and my back is absolutely killing me... argghhh... exams results coming out in 2 days time... countdown to doom.. T-Minus 64 hours... for the uninitiated...

What is sun burn?

Sunburn is the result of not using proper skin protection while sunbathing or even from routine sun exposure. The skin becomes red, tender and swollen. You may have a stinging sensation and blistering may occur. Some people even get a low grade fever. The skin will eventually shed or peel, once the skin underneath has renewed itself.

Everyone, even dark skinned persons, are at risk for sunburn.

Redness, pain, swelling, and even blistering can occur from this over exposure. Peeling of the skin usually follows several days later. The pain of sunburn is usually greatest between 6 and 48 hours after exposure.

What Causes Sunburn?

Sunburn is caused by excessive exposure to the sun or other ultraviolet light source. Sunburn occurs because the body is unable to make enough melanin (protective pigment in the skin) to protect the skin. Sunburn may occur in less than 15 minutes of sun exposure for light-skinned persons while it may take hours for a dark-skinned person to develop a sunburn.

turion at 09:11

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Luther Vandross - Can Heaven Wait
Quarter after seven, got a phone call
Telling me to get here quick
Said your girl is in a bad situation
They don't know if she's gonna make it
As I hurry to be by her side
I ask a thousand times, why oh why
There's no rhyme or reason in my life
With you lying here this way
I'd give anything just to trade places with you
So I'm begging heaven down on my knees
To help you make it through
[Chorus:]
Tell me can heaven wait
Can heaven wait just one more night
Tell me what it's gonna take
To keep you with me in my life
Giving up the shame of my other life
Now I'm seeing things in a whole new light
Lord, I vow to change if you just make it right
Can heaven wait one night
Thinking back on times that I've wasted
I should have cherished every day
All the different flavors that I tasted
Can't compare to you, no way
As I reminisce by your side
Tears of guilt are streaming from my eyes
All the things I did that weren't right
Wish I could apologize
I'd give anything if I could trade places with you
So I'm beggin' heaven down on my knees
To help you make it through
[Chorus]
I'm gonna stop the world, reverse the time
Do whatever it takes to keep you alive
Heaven has to wait one more day
Baby, take my breath so you can breathe
I need you here so don't you leave
Heaven has to wait
[Chorus]

turion at 11:38

[161005] i'm burnt and im hurting... sentosa trip was decent... not too crowded yesterday and the scenary wasnt that spectacular, now im red as a lobster.. my entire upper body, limbs and of course face... only part aint burnt? shorts area.. it even hurts to just lie down or yawn... skin's pretty tight...

met up with the lads for dinner.. a very healthy crowd for pre-match makan.. over 10 of us? of course, jokes insults and teasing were aplenty.. had Mac for dinner, super full afterwards but lost my voice in the opening 10 minutes of the game... darn it.. stupid fried stuff.. voice's still shaky and coarse now.. and im having a slight sore throat.. how not to, when we were all shouting and screaming at the refereee from yesternight's game?

"I know where you live, you wanker!"

Tony made that comment, cracked me up but i wouldnt be surprised at the hostilities towards him, when he denied us a penalty in the opening minutes as well as make a whole list of freaking poor judgements, the assistant referees werent spared the hostilities as well with them disallowing a goal King Al scored.. bloody low standard of refereeing last night, i seriously hope the FA reviews the actions of this wanker of a referee...

September seems to be the breaking up season, so many of my brudders all broke up with their respective halves... feel sad for them lah, efforts, feelings and everything else invested in the relationship all come to naught.. but there will be others.. others better than the ones that fail to see that you were the one... look forward, my brudders...

turion at 08:28

Saturday, October 15, 2005

[151005] 0640 hrs now... meeting Qin Hao for morning jog at 0700 hrs then meeting up with Jun Jian, Dharman, Yao Hui and Eng Siang to go sentosa... today's gonna be a busy busy day... perhaps even meeting up with darren and his friends to have a kick about ala beach soccer, been a long time since any of us seen him, so will be great fun i reckon.

Newcastle Vs Wigan at 1930!!!! as usual, meeting up with the lads at fluid's to watch the game.. another night of fun filled soccer packed night i guess, shouting, screaming and cheering.. haha.. all in the name of NUFC..

HOWAY-THE-LADS!

turion at 06:37

Friday, October 14, 2005

[141005] Bored... nothing to do at home though im meeting YH, dharman and JJ for dinner... reading through some bulletins on friendster, came across this very meaningful and interesting bulletin... so here it is.. what Opera winfrey had to say about men... (from a woman's perceptive)

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what make you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck NO you can't be friends, A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend?

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better..." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by abunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important thanyou are... Even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two Way street. You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone COMPLIMENTARY...not supplementary...

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right Make him miss you sometimes... when a man alwaysknow where you are, And you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give youeverything that you need Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person an hour to Appreciate them a day to love them & an entire lifetime to forget them !!!

geez... men bashing.. haha.. but it does make sense.. so all the gals who read this take note ya?

You may let a fool kiss you but you should never be fooled by a kiss

turion at 18:29

[141005] Woke up this morning, tinkered with blog again tried to put in some music but darn thing doesnt work, well it did work but the song kept repeating itself as i navigate through the blog so i have 3 of the same songs playing simultaneously... irritating so guess i wont be adding any music to my blog.. haha.. oh well.. and guess what, blogger does not support chinese characters.... darn... something always seems to go wrong...
shit happens

turion at 09:39

Thursday, October 13, 2005

[131005] Virgin entry in my new blog... obtained the skin from blogskins.com cool webby for tons and i mean tons of cool templates to choose from.. everything's kindda new to me as i try to figure out how to configure and do up my blog... do try and bear with me in the meantime yah?

turion at 19:55