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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
[310506] The 'F' word
Of all the words in the English language, one of the most useful and yet most controversial is the word FUCK. Strangely, there are hundreds and even thousands of words in the English dictionary, and yet FUCK is the only word that is referred to as the ‘F’ word. It truly is a very magical word, because not all words can mean two very opposite things at the same time. The word FUCK can actually connote both pleasure and pain, or both love and hate at the same time, and in rare occasions, even in the same sentence!
Unknown to many, the word FUCK is actually believed to be a German derivative of the word “Frichen”, which means “to strike”... It was once said that FUCK was an acronym used at the early middle-ages or that sort of time, and it meant “Fornication Under the Consent of the King”, or some other alternative with that same meaning. However, this translation is nothing but an urban legend. The exact date or age when this word was fully corrupted into the English language is unknown, but we can all assume that, in the early beginnings of the word, it was used to connote sexual intercourse between two people. However, it can be noted that FUCK is the only word that can be used in the most parts of speech known to man, especially in modern times.
If used as a transitive verb: “Adam FUCKS Eve.”
If used as an intransitive verb: “Eve FUCKS.”
If used as a noun: “Stay away, FUCKER!”
If used as an adjective: “Ryan’s doing all the FUCKING work!”
If used as an adverb for a verb: “I’m trying to FUCKING sleep!”
If used as an adverb for an adjective: “Eve is FUCKING beautiful!”
It can even be a different part of a speech, all in one sentence!
Take for instance the sentence: “FUCK off, you FUCKING FUCKED FUCKERS!”
Yet one the most amazing applications is to modify a word by inserting it into the word itself, giving stress and importance a million times over, like for example, the words: “abso-FUCKING-lutely!” or “in-FUCKING-credible!” The word FUCK is definitely a word of so many uses. Strangely, even saying only the word “FUCK!” is already a complete sentence in itself, though it is not advisable because just saying that one word, due to its many applications, is quite vague in terms of its meaning because it can connote many things.
It can mean dishonesty (The insurance company FUCKED me.), it can mean difficulty (I don’t understand this FUCKING question!), it can mean aggression (Don’t FUCK with me, buddy!), it can mean trouble (Oh, I’m so FUCKED now.), it can mean incompetence (My teacher’s a FUCKER!), or it can mean dismissal (Go FUCK yourself!). You can fill in more meanings by yourself.
Lately though, we see it constantly being used with the pronoun “YOU”. When both are used, it is already a complete sentence in itself. It can mean a lot of things depending on the situation. If somebody told you that you’re ugly and you reply by shouting “FUCK YOU!” with a smile, it can mean that you agree with him, but saying it with a frown and a raised fist can mean aggression. If somebody proposed his/her love to you, and you frown and say “FUCK YOU!”, it’s connotes disbelief. If you reply an “I love you” with a smiling “FUCK YOU!”, it’s already as good as “I love you too!”
The power of the word FUCK even transcends racial and class boundaries, because you can use it on anyone regardless of race, color, gender or orientation. Just one use of the word FUCK and everybody will automatically know what kind of person you are and how you were raised. With all this said, let us not be afraid of the ‘F’ word. Not many words exist with the same tenacity and the same power. Therefore, we must shine in pride, as the existence of the word FUCK simply means that we are near to perfecting our language and human communication in general.
Thank you for orienting yourself with this magical word, and if you have reached this far in reading, with a smile I would like to say “FUCK YOU!!!"
Of all the words in the English language, one of the most useful and yet most controversial is the word FUCK. Strangely, there are hundreds and even thousands of words in the English dictionary, and yet FUCK is the only word that is referred to as the ‘F’ word. It truly is a very magical word, because not all words can mean two very opposite things at the same time. The word FUCK can actually connote both pleasure and pain, or both love and hate at the same time, and in rare occasions, even in the same sentence!
Unknown to many, the word FUCK is actually believed to be a German derivative of the word “Frichen”, which means “to strike”... It was once said that FUCK was an acronym used at the early middle-ages or that sort of time, and it meant “Fornication Under the Consent of the King”, or some other alternative with that same meaning. However, this translation is nothing but an urban legend. The exact date or age when this word was fully corrupted into the English language is unknown, but we can all assume that, in the early beginnings of the word, it was used to connote sexual intercourse between two people. However, it can be noted that FUCK is the only word that can be used in the most parts of speech known to man, especially in modern times.
If used as a transitive verb: “Adam FUCKS Eve.”
If used as an intransitive verb: “Eve FUCKS.”
If used as a noun: “Stay away, FUCKER!”
If used as an adjective: “Ryan’s doing all the FUCKING work!”
If used as an adverb for a verb: “I’m trying to FUCKING sleep!”
If used as an adverb for an adjective: “Eve is FUCKING beautiful!”
It can even be a different part of a speech, all in one sentence!
Take for instance the sentence: “FUCK off, you FUCKING FUCKED FUCKERS!”
Yet one the most amazing applications is to modify a word by inserting it into the word itself, giving stress and importance a million times over, like for example, the words: “abso-FUCKING-lutely!” or “in-FUCKING-credible!” The word FUCK is definitely a word of so many uses. Strangely, even saying only the word “FUCK!” is already a complete sentence in itself, though it is not advisable because just saying that one word, due to its many applications, is quite vague in terms of its meaning because it can connote many things.
It can mean dishonesty (The insurance company FUCKED me.), it can mean difficulty (I don’t understand this FUCKING question!), it can mean aggression (Don’t FUCK with me, buddy!), it can mean trouble (Oh, I’m so FUCKED now.), it can mean incompetence (My teacher’s a FUCKER!), or it can mean dismissal (Go FUCK yourself!). You can fill in more meanings by yourself.
Lately though, we see it constantly being used with the pronoun “YOU”. When both are used, it is already a complete sentence in itself. It can mean a lot of things depending on the situation. If somebody told you that you’re ugly and you reply by shouting “FUCK YOU!” with a smile, it can mean that you agree with him, but saying it with a frown and a raised fist can mean aggression. If somebody proposed his/her love to you, and you frown and say “FUCK YOU!”, it’s connotes disbelief. If you reply an “I love you” with a smiling “FUCK YOU!”, it’s already as good as “I love you too!”
The power of the word FUCK even transcends racial and class boundaries, because you can use it on anyone regardless of race, color, gender or orientation. Just one use of the word FUCK and everybody will automatically know what kind of person you are and how you were raised. With all this said, let us not be afraid of the ‘F’ word. Not many words exist with the same tenacity and the same power. Therefore, we must shine in pride, as the existence of the word FUCK simply means that we are near to perfecting our language and human communication in general.
Thank you for orienting yourself with this magical word, and if you have reached this far in reading, with a smile I would like to say “FUCK YOU!!!"
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
[300506] The boredom is suffocating
Ever felt so bored that u're literally bored out of your mind wondering what to do? Well, im experiencing that right now, ever since i woke up... spent the early part of the day after waking up to check my mail etc but after all that was done, i realised that i had nothing else to do... helped in mopping and vacumming the floor and afterwards chatting with a colleague from work for a while...
I realise that i cant really carry a conversation these days... wondered how and what we used to talk about in the past when we could chat from evening all the way into the wee hours of the morning... i really wonder... nowadays, i find most conversations i have with people are becoming quite pointless... i sense a wave of depression... mood swings? haha.. perhaps it's that time of the month again...
I feel lost, neglected and sad... :(
Ever felt so bored that u're literally bored out of your mind wondering what to do? Well, im experiencing that right now, ever since i woke up... spent the early part of the day after waking up to check my mail etc but after all that was done, i realised that i had nothing else to do... helped in mopping and vacumming the floor and afterwards chatting with a colleague from work for a while...
I realise that i cant really carry a conversation these days... wondered how and what we used to talk about in the past when we could chat from evening all the way into the wee hours of the morning... i really wonder... nowadays, i find most conversations i have with people are becoming quite pointless... i sense a wave of depression... mood swings? haha.. perhaps it's that time of the month again...
I feel lost, neglected and sad... :(
[300506] Happy belated birthday
Met Win as i left for the SIR building to make my new IC and she handed me my very very very belated birthday gift. A wallet.. the irony, me having lost my wallet just 2 weeks ago... thanks for the wallet win, i know u like it alot too... but i've grown out of velcro wallets but nonetheless, a precious momento to be kept... hmmm, come to think of it, the wallet is my first birthday gift since... since... since... a long long time ago.. hmmm... i think the last birthday gift i recieved from friends was like in sec3... a nike t-shirt from my 'sis' Wei Zhen... no, no wait.. i recieved a birthday gift 2 years ago from esther... haha.. a chicken for the soul book *thinks* yep, that was the last birthday gift i recieved...
Met Win as i left for the SIR building to make my new IC and she handed me my very very very belated birthday gift. A wallet.. the irony, me having lost my wallet just 2 weeks ago... thanks for the wallet win, i know u like it alot too... but i've grown out of velcro wallets but nonetheless, a precious momento to be kept... hmmm, come to think of it, the wallet is my first birthday gift since... since... since... a long long time ago.. hmmm... i think the last birthday gift i recieved from friends was like in sec3... a nike t-shirt from my 'sis' Wei Zhen... no, no wait.. i recieved a birthday gift 2 years ago from esther... haha.. a chicken for the soul book *thinks* yep, that was the last birthday gift i recieved...
It aint too much of a deal, i dont really celebrate my birthdays anyways, used to remember scrambling around during secondary school days saving and deciding what birthday gifts to buy for close friends... and hoping that they appreciate the effort and like the gifts ... but as the years pass, the buying of gifts slowly became simple birthday greetings or in the form of a birthday card... though i do still chip in for friends' birthdays gifts...
Made my new IC for $60.00, sianz... and add to the fact that i finally bought myself a set of headphones since mine spoiled dunno how many donkey years ago... im beginning to be poor all over again.. sickening.. well, not really poor but it's kinnda depressing to see my bank account balance free falling but luckily work helps the bank account to recover.. haha..
Im having the day off tomorrow (tuesday), my first day off after 11 days of working but kinnda dreading the day.. dunno really have anything to do at home.. i think im more scared of the boredom, i seriously would rather work than to be bored to death at home... no where to go, no one to meet up with, no one to go out with.. arghhhh... why wasnt I scheduled to work?? sighz...
Counting down to working on Wednesday...
Monday, May 29, 2006
| Your Birthdate: March 31 |
 Your strength: Your dependability Your weakness: You hate being alone Your power color: Midnight blue Your power symbol: Shell Your power month: April |
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
[220506] Tell me that it's real
Just came back from work... im working 6 closing shifts this week and 1 opening shift.. yep, working the entire week again and most probably i'll be working every single day until further notice.. does it get tiring? probably but nothing a 10 hour sleep wont cure and the motivation behind all the work is there... ka-ching..
Im working 54.5 hours this week but 4 hours of Overtime... a grand total of 58.5 hours.. which makes me the hardest working staff in my outlet.. and most likely the richest as well come pay day.. heh... all my other colleagues seem to think im crazy as im a part timer working harder and more hours than a full timer... oh well, this is what happens when one has no life to speak of... oh well.. no time to dwell in self pity.. work takes up my time now..
Been scheduled to work in Bar the past week or so... im finding it to be the most frustrating, satisfying and fun station at tcc... all rolled up in one.. well, the satisfaction derived from making the drinks are different from serving the guests but it's a satisfying experience when you see the end product of your work.. and skill to a certain extend.. the way u foam the milk, the presentation.. ah.. the wonders of being a barista...
ok, i see all your blank faces.. you guys wont understand.. moving on... nothing much to say also.. been only working, sleeping and working... heading back to SP tomorrow to collect my certification letter (a letter that states i've already graduated from SP) so i can clear up my enlistment stuff with CMPB and hopefully enlist soon.. not too soon i hope.. im enjoying my working life tremendously...
KCI & JOJO - Tell that it's real
Are you for real
like how i feel
can we share a love
to last foreverand if so
let me knowSong
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Baby you told me that you loved me and you'd never leave my side
to the bitter end, through the thick and thin
you promised me baby that you wasn't goin anywhere
baby keep it real, let me know just how you feel
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
I can't explain the way you made me feel, everytime that you told me that you loved me
and you know you did, too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along, and showed me happiness
baby you are the best, i think you're different from the rest
and i really love ya
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by(you gotta)
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Tell me its real(do you really love me)
this feelin that we feel(do you really care)
tell me that its real(you promised that you'd never leave my side)
don't let love come just, to pass us by(you promised that you'd always be there)
Try, is all we have to do(is all we have to do)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Tell me its real(i'll be there for you)
this feelin that we feel(you be there for me, sweetheart)
tell me that its real(i thought that we were meant to be, for eternity, thought you loved me baby)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do(mama told me told me so, boy you just don't know, anything about love)
its up to me and youto make this special love, last forever more(and you and i were meant to be, and you would know, i was sure by the end of this song)
Just came back from work... im working 6 closing shifts this week and 1 opening shift.. yep, working the entire week again and most probably i'll be working every single day until further notice.. does it get tiring? probably but nothing a 10 hour sleep wont cure and the motivation behind all the work is there... ka-ching..
Im working 54.5 hours this week but 4 hours of Overtime... a grand total of 58.5 hours.. which makes me the hardest working staff in my outlet.. and most likely the richest as well come pay day.. heh... all my other colleagues seem to think im crazy as im a part timer working harder and more hours than a full timer... oh well, this is what happens when one has no life to speak of... oh well.. no time to dwell in self pity.. work takes up my time now..
Been scheduled to work in Bar the past week or so... im finding it to be the most frustrating, satisfying and fun station at tcc... all rolled up in one.. well, the satisfaction derived from making the drinks are different from serving the guests but it's a satisfying experience when you see the end product of your work.. and skill to a certain extend.. the way u foam the milk, the presentation.. ah.. the wonders of being a barista...
ok, i see all your blank faces.. you guys wont understand.. moving on... nothing much to say also.. been only working, sleeping and working... heading back to SP tomorrow to collect my certification letter (a letter that states i've already graduated from SP) so i can clear up my enlistment stuff with CMPB and hopefully enlist soon.. not too soon i hope.. im enjoying my working life tremendously...
KCI & JOJO - Tell that it's real
Are you for real
like how i feel
can we share a love
to last foreverand if so
let me knowSong
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Baby you told me that you loved me and you'd never leave my side
to the bitter end, through the thick and thin
you promised me baby that you wasn't goin anywhere
baby keep it real, let me know just how you feel
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
I can't explain the way you made me feel, everytime that you told me that you loved me
and you know you did, too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along, and showed me happiness
baby you are the best, i think you're different from the rest
and i really love ya
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by(you gotta)
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Tell me its real(do you really love me)
this feelin that we feel(do you really care)
tell me that its real(you promised that you'd never leave my side)
don't let love come just, to pass us by(you promised that you'd always be there)
Try, is all we have to do(is all we have to do)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
Tell me its real(i'll be there for you)
this feelin that we feel(you be there for me, sweetheart)
tell me that its real(i thought that we were meant to be, for eternity, thought you loved me baby)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do(mama told me told me so, boy you just don't know, anything about love)
its up to me and youto make this special love, last forever more(and you and i were meant to be, and you would know, i was sure by the end of this song)
Thursday, May 18, 2006
[180506] Breaking the Code
Woke up at 0730 hrs and by 0800 hrs, i was showered and out of the house heading for CMPB for my re-medical... reached redhill and decided to take a cab there, bumped into Chuen Wei there, small world indeed... he's still schooling, left with the final semester... all the best my friend...
As I approached the counter, I informed the private at the station that this was my second time for medical and I had recieved the letter informing me to go for the remedical, after some checking, it turned out that my PES status was still valid and I could go back home. After spending an hour's travelling time ALL THE WAY FROM YISHUN.
WTF
He then proceeded to inform me that I could call this number to check on my enlistment status or since i was already there proceed to the infomation counter to clarify directly... already, i was quite pissed having to wake up so darn early after having stayed up to catch the Champion's League finals... The lady then proceeded to pass my papers and my case to her colleague who took another 10-15 mins just to confirm the extension of her superior who came down to see me. After further enquiries, it turned out that the system had scheduled me for another medical checkup because I was supposedly enlisting in December and the whole cock up was due to the fact that for Forward module students like myself (read: Grades not good, students with poor grades), the MINDEF system automatically defers our studies for us instead of having us defering it ourselves as they 'forsee' that being the poor students we are, we might take more than one deferment before completing our studies...
WTF WTF
Pure discrimination that led to so much trouble this morning, in the end, they still needed a letter from SP to indicate that i've already finished my studies so that they can confirm my enlistment status. My heart sank immediately, i needed to come back with the letter from SP... another trip to CMPB which is in the middle of nowhere?? Luckily can fax in to her... so happily left CMPB and called up the examinations office where i was told that it's not the school's policy to just fax infomation to MINDEF unless they specifically request for it. This policy was repeated to me half a dozen times as I attempted to inform them that the lady told me to ask the school to fax it to them, and they would need 2 freaking working days to print the Certificate... how hard is it to print this one piece of shitty paper and fax it over? i mean, it probably wouldnt even take more than 5 minutes... assholes... was so f**king pissed and I had to go down to school and then fax it to MINDEF myself...
WTF WTF WTF
I then took cab to Tiong Bahru and then transferred to train and headed home... reached Yishun around 11, almost 4 hours after i had left yishun earlier in the morning, 4 freaking hours lost to morons, retards and a system that discriminates against students with poor grades. F**k... Met up with Grace, Norli and Lex for the Da Vinci Code at The Cathay. First time watching movie there, first thoughts... cool place... gonna be another Cineleisure in the future once all the shops open up... gonna be another hip and cool place to hang out and go to one day... saw something that i dun belive they sold over the popcorn counters at The Cathay.. they sold pasta, fish and chips and sandwiches.. i mean, how in the world am i gonna eat the pasta when im watching the movie? it's bad enough that i have to bear with the crunching of potato cips... but imagine having to stand slurping of the pasta... argh... and the mess it'll leave behind.. i wonder who's the 'genius' who decided to sell pastas and such food over the snack counter of a cinema...
The Da Vinci code - World wide best selling novel by Dan Brown. Critically accaimled and translated into 44 languages worldwide. Publically critised by the Church and Christian associations the world over. Geez, get a life, IT'S FICTION!!!! why are you people so uptight about it? Come on already, give it a break, im sure your followers are mature enough to think for themselves and decide on what's fact and what's fiction.
Great movie... 2 and a half hours of suspense... somehow the scenes i had in my head while reading the novel were quite similar when i watch the film... the estate in which Leigh Teabing lived and intricate details of the film and plot... watching the film and having real images against the backdrop of the novel makes the movie experience even more worth while though I wasnt really wowed by the movie itself, it provided an interesting view and showcased the magnificent buildings in London and Paris.
The Da Vinci Code - 3.5 popcorns out of 5
Went for dinner at Breeks! and headed for Billy Bombers for their milkshakes.. their milk shakes are to die for... trust me on this.. absolute heavenly delight and at $6.50 per glass, it's quite generous in the serving... the Chocolate milkshake is a must try.. 2 thumbs, 2 arms and 2 legs up for the milkshakes.. im already looking forward to my next visit... haha.. Marina Square's Billy Bombers certainly is way better than the one at Heereen's.. service there is atrocious... trust me on this especial when i work in the F & B line myself... i cringe at their attitudes making guests wait at the front for over 5 minutes without even having someone to attend to us.. tsk tsk tsk...
gotta go, need to catch up on my Zs... slept only 2 hours last night... im dreaming of a chocolate milkshake already... cheers...
Woke up at 0730 hrs and by 0800 hrs, i was showered and out of the house heading for CMPB for my re-medical... reached redhill and decided to take a cab there, bumped into Chuen Wei there, small world indeed... he's still schooling, left with the final semester... all the best my friend...
As I approached the counter, I informed the private at the station that this was my second time for medical and I had recieved the letter informing me to go for the remedical, after some checking, it turned out that my PES status was still valid and I could go back home. After spending an hour's travelling time ALL THE WAY FROM YISHUN.
WTF
He then proceeded to inform me that I could call this number to check on my enlistment status or since i was already there proceed to the infomation counter to clarify directly... already, i was quite pissed having to wake up so darn early after having stayed up to catch the Champion's League finals... The lady then proceeded to pass my papers and my case to her colleague who took another 10-15 mins just to confirm the extension of her superior who came down to see me. After further enquiries, it turned out that the system had scheduled me for another medical checkup because I was supposedly enlisting in December and the whole cock up was due to the fact that for Forward module students like myself (read: Grades not good, students with poor grades), the MINDEF system automatically defers our studies for us instead of having us defering it ourselves as they 'forsee' that being the poor students we are, we might take more than one deferment before completing our studies...
WTF WTF
Pure discrimination that led to so much trouble this morning, in the end, they still needed a letter from SP to indicate that i've already finished my studies so that they can confirm my enlistment status. My heart sank immediately, i needed to come back with the letter from SP... another trip to CMPB which is in the middle of nowhere?? Luckily can fax in to her... so happily left CMPB and called up the examinations office where i was told that it's not the school's policy to just fax infomation to MINDEF unless they specifically request for it. This policy was repeated to me half a dozen times as I attempted to inform them that the lady told me to ask the school to fax it to them, and they would need 2 freaking working days to print the Certificate... how hard is it to print this one piece of shitty paper and fax it over? i mean, it probably wouldnt even take more than 5 minutes... assholes... was so f**king pissed and I had to go down to school and then fax it to MINDEF myself...
WTF WTF WTF
I then took cab to Tiong Bahru and then transferred to train and headed home... reached Yishun around 11, almost 4 hours after i had left yishun earlier in the morning, 4 freaking hours lost to morons, retards and a system that discriminates against students with poor grades. F**k... Met up with Grace, Norli and Lex for the Da Vinci Code at The Cathay. First time watching movie there, first thoughts... cool place... gonna be another Cineleisure in the future once all the shops open up... gonna be another hip and cool place to hang out and go to one day... saw something that i dun belive they sold over the popcorn counters at The Cathay.. they sold pasta, fish and chips and sandwiches.. i mean, how in the world am i gonna eat the pasta when im watching the movie? it's bad enough that i have to bear with the crunching of potato cips... but imagine having to stand slurping of the pasta... argh... and the mess it'll leave behind.. i wonder who's the 'genius' who decided to sell pastas and such food over the snack counter of a cinema...
The Da Vinci code - World wide best selling novel by Dan Brown. Critically accaimled and translated into 44 languages worldwide. Publically critised by the Church and Christian associations the world over. Geez, get a life, IT'S FICTION!!!! why are you people so uptight about it? Come on already, give it a break, im sure your followers are mature enough to think for themselves and decide on what's fact and what's fiction.
Great movie... 2 and a half hours of suspense... somehow the scenes i had in my head while reading the novel were quite similar when i watch the film... the estate in which Leigh Teabing lived and intricate details of the film and plot... watching the film and having real images against the backdrop of the novel makes the movie experience even more worth while though I wasnt really wowed by the movie itself, it provided an interesting view and showcased the magnificent buildings in London and Paris.
The Da Vinci Code - 3.5 popcorns out of 5
Went for dinner at Breeks! and headed for Billy Bombers for their milkshakes.. their milk shakes are to die for... trust me on this.. absolute heavenly delight and at $6.50 per glass, it's quite generous in the serving... the Chocolate milkshake is a must try.. 2 thumbs, 2 arms and 2 legs up for the milkshakes.. im already looking forward to my next visit... haha.. Marina Square's Billy Bombers certainly is way better than the one at Heereen's.. service there is atrocious... trust me on this especial when i work in the F & B line myself... i cringe at their attitudes making guests wait at the front for over 5 minutes without even having someone to attend to us.. tsk tsk tsk...
gotta go, need to catch up on my Zs... slept only 2 hours last night... im dreaming of a chocolate milkshake already... cheers...
[180506] I need a good read
Time now: 0106 hrs.
Time til UEFA Champions League Final: 1hr 29 mins
Time for 1 match: 90 mins
Outcome: 1 Champion
Ah.. after months of gruelling competitions, it boils down to a Barcelona vs. Arse-nal showdown at the Stade de France. Come to think about it, I think I may have passed by the Stade de France back in 1998 when I was lucky enough to go to Europe (my first and only holiday outside of Asia) for my holidays... but i was too young then and i didnt really soccer and in the same trip, I saw the Amsterdam Arena from a distance as I travelled from Amsterdam to Rotterdam.
Back to the topic, I sincerly hope that the face off between these two top technical sides would produce free flowing football coupled with many goals... the last champions league final in Istanbul was a magnificent match with Liverpool clawing back from being 3-0 down to 3-3 and finally beating Milan in the penalties. I eagerly anticipate the match later on...
Ok, shall change topic now, no doubt for the clueless and the uninterested, football's a boring and even disliked topic... updates on my wallet, Police still hasnt contacted me, i guess no kind samaritans found my wallet and decided to turn in to the police or mail me back my contents... damn it.. sighz... that's life for you...
Just finished watching The Bone Collector starring Denzel Washington, another top class actor alongside Tom Hanks in my honest opinion not to mention, he's one of the top Afro-American actors in Hollywood along with Morgan Freeman.. but i think Denzel Washington has acted in better movies like Glory & Crimson Tide... but honestly The Bone Collector turned out to be quite a disappointment after having read Jeffery Deaver's novel by the same name. (The movie's based on the book by the way and not the other way around) The movie left out too much infomation and plotlines and twists but I guess it's hard to cramp over 500 pages into 2 and a half hours... might be catching The Da Vinci Code tomorrow with Alex, grace and norli, hope that it wont be another disappointment... perhaps it'll be better not to carry any high hopes for we all know that - hope is the first step on the road to disappointment. (sorry, i cant help myself in spreading a little pessimism)
Talking about books, it's been a LOOOOooooooooooNNNNNNNnnggggg time since i had a good book to read.. compared to when i was studying, i read at least 2-4 books every week or so... been ages since i've actually read a book!!!! I need a good read... went to Popular earlier... saw a couple of books that caught my eye... the books seemed to have a mind of their own calling out to me to buy them.. yea right, i rather go to the library to borrow.. heh.. working now lahz, but still must budget ok? reading's a very good hobby and helps to pass time not to mention wind down...
For those that dun know, my favourite genres of novels are mainly fantasy (Books by Magaret Weise are a particular fav, dragonlance, LOTR etc), science fantasy (Dune series and Battletech) and suspense i think.. (Novels by Michael Conolly and Jeffery Deaver are pretty good) and of course anything with a military nature (Tom Clancy, Patterson all come into mind) and occasionally i like the odd historical non-fiction books... all these talking about books has gotten me itchy...
who's up for some time at the Woodlands Regional library with yours truly?
*silence*
That figures... sighz.. never mind.. solitude is a good thing at times... I NEED A GOOD BOOK TO READ!!! any recommendations?
Time now: 0106 hrs.
Time til UEFA Champions League Final: 1hr 29 mins
Time for 1 match: 90 mins
Outcome: 1 Champion
Ah.. after months of gruelling competitions, it boils down to a Barcelona vs. Arse-nal showdown at the Stade de France. Come to think about it, I think I may have passed by the Stade de France back in 1998 when I was lucky enough to go to Europe (my first and only holiday outside of Asia) for my holidays... but i was too young then and i didnt really soccer and in the same trip, I saw the Amsterdam Arena from a distance as I travelled from Amsterdam to Rotterdam.
Back to the topic, I sincerly hope that the face off between these two top technical sides would produce free flowing football coupled with many goals... the last champions league final in Istanbul was a magnificent match with Liverpool clawing back from being 3-0 down to 3-3 and finally beating Milan in the penalties. I eagerly anticipate the match later on...
Ok, shall change topic now, no doubt for the clueless and the uninterested, football's a boring and even disliked topic... updates on my wallet, Police still hasnt contacted me, i guess no kind samaritans found my wallet and decided to turn in to the police or mail me back my contents... damn it.. sighz... that's life for you...
Just finished watching The Bone Collector starring Denzel Washington, another top class actor alongside Tom Hanks in my honest opinion not to mention, he's one of the top Afro-American actors in Hollywood along with Morgan Freeman.. but i think Denzel Washington has acted in better movies like Glory & Crimson Tide... but honestly The Bone Collector turned out to be quite a disappointment after having read Jeffery Deaver's novel by the same name. (The movie's based on the book by the way and not the other way around) The movie left out too much infomation and plotlines and twists but I guess it's hard to cramp over 500 pages into 2 and a half hours... might be catching The Da Vinci Code tomorrow with Alex, grace and norli, hope that it wont be another disappointment... perhaps it'll be better not to carry any high hopes for we all know that - hope is the first step on the road to disappointment. (sorry, i cant help myself in spreading a little pessimism)
Talking about books, it's been a LOOOOooooooooooNNNNNNNnnggggg time since i had a good book to read.. compared to when i was studying, i read at least 2-4 books every week or so... been ages since i've actually read a book!!!! I need a good read... went to Popular earlier... saw a couple of books that caught my eye... the books seemed to have a mind of their own calling out to me to buy them.. yea right, i rather go to the library to borrow.. heh.. working now lahz, but still must budget ok? reading's a very good hobby and helps to pass time not to mention wind down...
For those that dun know, my favourite genres of novels are mainly fantasy (Books by Magaret Weise are a particular fav, dragonlance, LOTR etc), science fantasy (Dune series and Battletech) and suspense i think.. (Novels by Michael Conolly and Jeffery Deaver are pretty good) and of course anything with a military nature (Tom Clancy, Patterson all come into mind) and occasionally i like the odd historical non-fiction books... all these talking about books has gotten me itchy...
who's up for some time at the Woodlands Regional library with yours truly?
*silence*
That figures... sighz.. never mind.. solitude is a good thing at times... I NEED A GOOD BOOK TO READ!!! any recommendations?
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
| Your Values Profile |
 Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount. You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take. Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need. But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them. |
| Your Personality Is |
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
Sunday, May 14, 2006
[140506] We are the Champions
May 11th, 2100 hrs, ESPN. KickOff! Finals between Newcastle United Singapore captained by Sir Les Ferdinand and Manchester United India captained by Lee Sharpe. A grand final of epic scale as NUFCsg after seemingly looked to have emulated the premiership side in exiting the show early gained a second shot at the crown as they were awarded the 2nd round spot as one of the 2 best 'losers'
From there, they overcame stiff opposition in Arsenal Malaysia, AC Milan Malaysia and Arsenal India to reach the grand finals against a team traditionally viewed as a rival... Devils and Magpies dont mix well... A tense match followed in which NUFCsg trailed in the opening rounds only to prevail in the final round as Terence "lightning" Ong grabbed 9 consecutive questions to lead NUFCsg to its first ever trophy and in the process the title of ASIA'S MOST KNOWLEDGEABLE FOOTBALL FANS.
May 11th, 2100 hrs, ESPN. KickOff! Finals between Newcastle United Singapore captained by Sir Les Ferdinand and Manchester United India captained by Lee Sharpe. A grand final of epic scale as NUFCsg after seemingly looked to have emulated the premiership side in exiting the show early gained a second shot at the crown as they were awarded the 2nd round spot as one of the 2 best 'losers'
From there, they overcame stiff opposition in Arsenal Malaysia, AC Milan Malaysia and Arsenal India to reach the grand finals against a team traditionally viewed as a rival... Devils and Magpies dont mix well... A tense match followed in which NUFCsg trailed in the opening rounds only to prevail in the final round as Terence "lightning" Ong grabbed 9 consecutive questions to lead NUFCsg to its first ever trophy and in the process the title of ASIA'S MOST KNOWLEDGEABLE FOOTBALL FANS.
A big shout out to my team mate Terence in propelling us all the way through to win the show. I was just along for the ride, a hell of a ride in my books, i contributed everynow and then but you were the one who made a difference when it counted.. the title of ASIA'S MOST KNOWLEDGEABLE FAN indeed is a fitting tribute and testament to your ability and know how.
Secondly, a big shout out to all the lads who made the effort and took out time out of their busy schedules to come to the studio to cheer us on and support us from the first round to the finals.. you guys were great... painting the studio backdrop in black and white and spreading the geordie pride... wonderful stuff...
So what did I win? An all expenses paid trip to Newcastle, England to watch Newcastle Utd play Manchester United at St. James Park. SWWeeettt... I cant wait for that trip... my pilgrimage to the holy land.. to geordie land.. haha.. gonna be a hell of a trip... Speaking of the trip, my mum never fails to amuse me at times... She's been asking me alot about the exact details of the trip and the conversation that left me laughing in stiches went something like this in mandarin...
Mum: When you going to England?
Me: I dont know, ESPN and Moving Visuals still haven contacted us.
Mum: Are they cheating you out of the prize?
Me: Cannot be lah, ESPN is a global coporation.. has branches all over the world.
Mum: Global coporation wont cheat people one ah?
erm.. Ok.. point taken note of... mum wins hands down... ah.. the joy of winning something.. quite a special feeling.. hard to describe it actually... but the joy is overshadowed by the stepping down of a giant of a man, Alan Shearer as he bid farewell to Geordie nation after 10 outstanding years of service to the club he supported as a boy. A testimonial match which seemed to be fitting that the great man himself scored the penalty that won us the game 3-2.
A period of transition and change for the club i bleed black and white for but with UEFA cup football a posibility and the exciting summer to look forward to, i cant complain much. The end of a great era for the Magpies and I'm sure I say this for all Geordies that there's only one Alan Shearer...
Hhhhhhhheyyy Alan Shearer!!!
woo ah, i wanna know knoowww
How you score that goal!!!
Saw this in Terence's blog post and cant help myself.. corny and lame but remember to keep reading my life story cause We cant kick off without ya!
Turion out.
[140506] My name's Murphy
Just when I thought life was starting to be quite decent and acceptable, life finds ways to screw me over... I lost my wallet on friday... containing:
1. S$40 cash
2. Identity Card
3. ATM card
4. Debit card
5. TCC card
6. Cafe Cartel card
7. Fez bar card
8. TCC electronic punch card
ARGGHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've never lost a wallet before... why? why? why? It'll cost me S$100 to replace my IC not to mention i've lost the wallet i adored so much... arghhh... im the living, walking breathing epitome of murphy's laws... Shit happens.. yes it does...
Worst part is I dun even recall when was the last time I saw my wallet yesterday... or how I misplaced or lost it... only discovered during my break... needless to say, the most ultimate feeling of siansation u could imagine came over me... but hungry lah and i was cooking my maggie halfway through when i discovered I lost my wallet... so bo pian, makan first lahz.. The kitchen crew all thought i'd gone crazy.. lost my wallet but still happily slurping away on my maggie.. lol.. what to do? lost already, not as if the wallet can be found again...
Anyways, called to cancel all my cards and filed police report... managed to get a replacement ATM card already so now all i can do is damage control... the thought of spending 1/3 of my next paycheck on the new IC is just so sickening.. oh well, no one to blame but myself... i could always curse and swear at god and life itself... but nahz.. they are non-existing entities to begin with.. take it as an expensive lesson then...
Met up with fox on the fateful day as he wanted to go kino but some book called "How to become more interesing", brudder, you're a very interesting person already... no need to become more interesting... as the saying goes, too much of a good thing becomes a bad thing... walked around kino all the while deciding to pamper ourselves with a good meal at some nice establishment... Bakerzinn caught my eye but fox didnt want anything so in the end settled for early dinner at NYDC. First time i ate there (i know i know... sua ku right? haha.. well, there's a first for everything.)
HOPE...
Hope is...
False...
The denial of reality...
The first step on the road to disappointment...
no hopes, no disappointments...
get real, turion... let loose of all hope and thou shall be salvaged... and it will hurt less when the inevitable happens... Everyone has hopes and dreams... but most folks hold onto hopes and dreams that will never come true...
Just when I thought life was starting to be quite decent and acceptable, life finds ways to screw me over... I lost my wallet on friday... containing:
1. S$40 cash
2. Identity Card
3. ATM card
4. Debit card
5. TCC card
6. Cafe Cartel card
7. Fez bar card
8. TCC electronic punch card
ARGGHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've never lost a wallet before... why? why? why? It'll cost me S$100 to replace my IC not to mention i've lost the wallet i adored so much... arghhh... im the living, walking breathing epitome of murphy's laws... Shit happens.. yes it does...
Worst part is I dun even recall when was the last time I saw my wallet yesterday... or how I misplaced or lost it... only discovered during my break... needless to say, the most ultimate feeling of siansation u could imagine came over me... but hungry lah and i was cooking my maggie halfway through when i discovered I lost my wallet... so bo pian, makan first lahz.. The kitchen crew all thought i'd gone crazy.. lost my wallet but still happily slurping away on my maggie.. lol.. what to do? lost already, not as if the wallet can be found again...
Anyways, called to cancel all my cards and filed police report... managed to get a replacement ATM card already so now all i can do is damage control... the thought of spending 1/3 of my next paycheck on the new IC is just so sickening.. oh well, no one to blame but myself... i could always curse and swear at god and life itself... but nahz.. they are non-existing entities to begin with.. take it as an expensive lesson then...
Met up with fox on the fateful day as he wanted to go kino but some book called "How to become more interesing", brudder, you're a very interesting person already... no need to become more interesting... as the saying goes, too much of a good thing becomes a bad thing... walked around kino all the while deciding to pamper ourselves with a good meal at some nice establishment... Bakerzinn caught my eye but fox didnt want anything so in the end settled for early dinner at NYDC. First time i ate there (i know i know... sua ku right? haha.. well, there's a first for everything.)
HOPE...
Hope is...
False...
The denial of reality...
The first step on the road to disappointment...
no hopes, no disappointments...
get real, turion... let loose of all hope and thou shall be salvaged... and it will hurt less when the inevitable happens... Everyone has hopes and dreams... but most folks hold onto hopes and dreams that will never come true...
Friday, May 12, 2006
[110506] Shut your f**king mouth uncle f**ker
Met up with redfox and blackie on tuesday night... tried out Starbuck's new banana cream frappaccino.. hmm.. first thought was i wondered if it would be like drinking a banana milkshake... first thought as i tasted it.. tasted like banana muffins.. lol... honestly.. second thought, darn... should have stick to my usual iced mocha... oh well, expensive S$6.00 lesson in the fine art of starbucks drinks.
Anyways, blackie came back from Taiwan and brought me and redfox lays (as in the potato chips) in the exotic flavours of Korean Kimchi and Japanese Teriyaki.. i know i know.. i was like o.O too at first.. proceeded to spend the next 2 hours watching dance videos, footy videos and of course SOUTH PARK! haha... coolness... come on now, sing after me, Shut your f**king mouth uncle f**ker.. lol... really had fun while watching the videos and munching on the chips which were in fact quite good.. until the nice and very cute barista politely informed us that they're closing.. oh well... decided to go for prata and meet up with JJ...
Slacked and proposed our trip to Genting to be in either early august or late july... hmm... 1 night stay at Genting followed by night out at KL zouk... (what to do? all my brudders all chiongsters, guess i'll be spending that night sitting at the counter drinking and listening to music... lol) after which we came up with the seemingly endless problems, logistcally and planning side as well as cost.. oh well... august's still a long way to go.. heh...
Im begining to think that some of the guests I recieve at TCC are either dumb, retarded or a combination of both... i mean.. when u see the queue and still make your way for an empty table just shows how smart one is. In the end, you're embarassed admists the stares of the people in the queue.
DUMBASSES.
Some are just plain rude, i mean if you want sugar all you had to do was to ask nicely and we (my colleagues and me) would get you the sugar immediately with a smile. Was there a need to berate us and sarcastically adding, "You dont know coffee drink with sugar one ah? where's the sugar? You just started work ah? Dont know still working here?" FUCKER. geez, another one of those airheads who think just because they got money, they automatically become the most important people. For them, i only have nothing but pure contempt and digust for them. Fuck lah, dont you know there're actually people who drink their coffee without sugar?? The other day met another asshole who again for some reason i cant quite understand decided to shoot me, also requesting for sugar... "Excuse me, do you provide sugar or do I have to bring my own sugar from home?" It may sound funny but his body language and his tone when he said that... blood immediately started boiling man...
ASSHOLES & FUCKERS.
Something else about some of the guests... they all expect their drinks and food to appear immediately or magically after ordering.. perhaps they're just impatient or mis-informed... Tcc is NOT a fastfood restraunt, we're a cafe with a full kitchen staff who actually do real cooking on stoves, in ovens using pans... well, if you start complaining about how other cafes serves their food faster and how it's so fast and yet so nice and how their cooks are such marvels... stop and think. Firstly, if that's really the case, their so called cooks are actually masters of the microwaves cause all they need to do is to "assemble" their ingredients and use the microwaves... it's not their cooks who are excellent but their microwaves that does all the excellent work... Secondly, if you wanted FASTfood, you should have gone to the MacDonald's just 3 minutes walk down from where we are... and not waste our time and in the end complaining how come the food take so long, how you're in a rush and yet amazingly stay on to chat at the table for the next hour or so after you're done with your meal...
BITCHES.
Disclaimer: All the mentioned events are largely based on the minority of guests i serve. Most guests are kind, polite and friendly. Too bad one bad cook spoils the entire broth. The F and B line aint that bad as I descibe it to be... honest... I just bitch and whine more often about the bad experiences... heh
Met up with redfox and blackie on tuesday night... tried out Starbuck's new banana cream frappaccino.. hmm.. first thought was i wondered if it would be like drinking a banana milkshake... first thought as i tasted it.. tasted like banana muffins.. lol... honestly.. second thought, darn... should have stick to my usual iced mocha... oh well, expensive S$6.00 lesson in the fine art of starbucks drinks.
Anyways, blackie came back from Taiwan and brought me and redfox lays (as in the potato chips) in the exotic flavours of Korean Kimchi and Japanese Teriyaki.. i know i know.. i was like o.O too at first.. proceeded to spend the next 2 hours watching dance videos, footy videos and of course SOUTH PARK! haha... coolness... come on now, sing after me, Shut your f**king mouth uncle f**ker.. lol... really had fun while watching the videos and munching on the chips which were in fact quite good.. until the nice and very cute barista politely informed us that they're closing.. oh well... decided to go for prata and meet up with JJ...
Slacked and proposed our trip to Genting to be in either early august or late july... hmm... 1 night stay at Genting followed by night out at KL zouk... (what to do? all my brudders all chiongsters, guess i'll be spending that night sitting at the counter drinking and listening to music... lol) after which we came up with the seemingly endless problems, logistcally and planning side as well as cost.. oh well... august's still a long way to go.. heh...
Im begining to think that some of the guests I recieve at TCC are either dumb, retarded or a combination of both... i mean.. when u see the queue and still make your way for an empty table just shows how smart one is. In the end, you're embarassed admists the stares of the people in the queue.
DUMBASSES.
Some are just plain rude, i mean if you want sugar all you had to do was to ask nicely and we (my colleagues and me) would get you the sugar immediately with a smile. Was there a need to berate us and sarcastically adding, "You dont know coffee drink with sugar one ah? where's the sugar? You just started work ah? Dont know still working here?" FUCKER. geez, another one of those airheads who think just because they got money, they automatically become the most important people. For them, i only have nothing but pure contempt and digust for them. Fuck lah, dont you know there're actually people who drink their coffee without sugar?? The other day met another asshole who again for some reason i cant quite understand decided to shoot me, also requesting for sugar... "Excuse me, do you provide sugar or do I have to bring my own sugar from home?" It may sound funny but his body language and his tone when he said that... blood immediately started boiling man...
ASSHOLES & FUCKERS.
Something else about some of the guests... they all expect their drinks and food to appear immediately or magically after ordering.. perhaps they're just impatient or mis-informed... Tcc is NOT a fastfood restraunt, we're a cafe with a full kitchen staff who actually do real cooking on stoves, in ovens using pans... well, if you start complaining about how other cafes serves their food faster and how it's so fast and yet so nice and how their cooks are such marvels... stop and think. Firstly, if that's really the case, their so called cooks are actually masters of the microwaves cause all they need to do is to "assemble" their ingredients and use the microwaves... it's not their cooks who are excellent but their microwaves that does all the excellent work... Secondly, if you wanted FASTfood, you should have gone to the MacDonald's just 3 minutes walk down from where we are... and not waste our time and in the end complaining how come the food take so long, how you're in a rush and yet amazingly stay on to chat at the table for the next hour or so after you're done with your meal...
BITCHES.
Disclaimer: All the mentioned events are largely based on the minority of guests i serve. Most guests are kind, polite and friendly. Too bad one bad cook spoils the entire broth. The F and B line aint that bad as I descibe it to be... honest... I just bitch and whine more often about the bad experiences... heh
Monday, May 08, 2006
[070506] Feeling the blues...
Cant really explain it but i've been feeling blue these couple of days... the feeling comes and goes but overall been feeling down, sad and frustrated. I dont even know the freakin reason for it... it's as though im suffering from mood swings... geez... sometimes, i feel alright but all of a sudden the blues just descend and my mood immediately plummets...
I've been thinking these couple of days... conversation between 2 parties, be it between friends, loved ones, colleagues or couples... the simple act of conversing, is it really that simple? Am I a good person to converse with? Sometimes, I look around and see that everyone's talking while im just hanging around the back... silently looking on...
It's hard to reach out i guess or even to make the first step to talk.. and even if a conversation is started, how do you carry on? Sometimes as I converse, i feel as though, the topics to talk about are meaningless and talking and the very act of conversing almost becomes a chore... to the point that sometimes, i just prefer to just hang back and be left alone with my thoughts...
It's hard to relate to someone and even harder to 'click' with another... "The most complex event to occur on a daily basis is the meeting of 2 human beings" How true are the words behind this quote... sighz...
Have you heard a saying that people who can make other people laugh make good companions, friends and your significant other half? But I look at people all around me and at work and see practically, everyone's able to crack jokes, make people smile etc etc... so, what's the difference? there isnt any to begin with i think.. it's all the same and the saying's wrong... i mean, almost any guy can make a gal smile or laugh... i've yet to meet a person who doesnt have the slightest of abilities to make others laugh or at least smile...
Nsync - gone
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you doYeeaah....
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone
Ohhh...
Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....
Cant really explain it but i've been feeling blue these couple of days... the feeling comes and goes but overall been feeling down, sad and frustrated. I dont even know the freakin reason for it... it's as though im suffering from mood swings... geez... sometimes, i feel alright but all of a sudden the blues just descend and my mood immediately plummets...
I've been thinking these couple of days... conversation between 2 parties, be it between friends, loved ones, colleagues or couples... the simple act of conversing, is it really that simple? Am I a good person to converse with? Sometimes, I look around and see that everyone's talking while im just hanging around the back... silently looking on...
It's hard to reach out i guess or even to make the first step to talk.. and even if a conversation is started, how do you carry on? Sometimes as I converse, i feel as though, the topics to talk about are meaningless and talking and the very act of conversing almost becomes a chore... to the point that sometimes, i just prefer to just hang back and be left alone with my thoughts...
It's hard to relate to someone and even harder to 'click' with another... "The most complex event to occur on a daily basis is the meeting of 2 human beings" How true are the words behind this quote... sighz...
Have you heard a saying that people who can make other people laugh make good companions, friends and your significant other half? But I look at people all around me and at work and see practically, everyone's able to crack jokes, make people smile etc etc... so, what's the difference? there isnt any to begin with i think.. it's all the same and the saying's wrong... i mean, almost any guy can make a gal smile or laugh... i've yet to meet a person who doesnt have the slightest of abilities to make others laugh or at least smile...
Nsync - gone
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you doYeeaah....
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone
Ohhh...
Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....
Saturday, May 06, 2006
[060506] Ultimate siansation
Yesterday just as i left for work, i checked my mailbox and to my delight found 2 letters addressed to me. One was from Starhub, the S$20 Tangs voucher i redeemed and the other letter was from MINDEF. "Ah.. finally, my enlistment letter." I proceeded to calmly open (ok, didnt really open it calmly rather, frantically is a better word for it...) the letter from MINDEF and i scanned the letter for dates.
You are required to report at 0800 hrs in your PT attire on 18/05/06
WTF?!? 18th May? Just a mere 2 weeks away, as I tried to take in what has just happened, I scanned across the header, Enlistment Act, Chapter 93 - Further Reporting Act. Fuck, i made a wrong assumption... they're telling me to go for another medical checkup... not my enlistment...
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
*Groanz* arrrggggggghhhhhhh.... another 4 hours of meaningless time wasted on the bloody medical checkup???!?!? I proceeded to call CMPB up and clarify on this issue, after wasting at least 10 minutes on hold listening to 98.7 FM, i finally got thru and the kind nice lady at the end of the line proceeded to inform me in a more than casual manner that this was routine and i may have been called back for a second medical checkup because I might have missed some steps in the first checkup or some of the information was unclear...
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
oh fuck it...
Met up with fox for lunch (well, he just sat there and drank his Crysanthenum tea, he ate at home) then proceeded to Novena square to reece for his Nippon addidas jacket. Turned out to be a fruitless trip and proceeded to Plaza Sing as I prepared to go to work while he decided to mill around Plaza Sing waiting for the monk to come...
A couple of days, a cauasian gentleman dropped by at tcc and I approached him asking if i could help. I could see that he was scanning the cake fridge and was looking at the take away sandwiches and cakes so I proceeded to ask if he was looking for something to eat or drink...
Me: Good afternoon Sir. May I help?
Ang-moh: Actually, I was just looking around.
Me: Perhaps you're looking for something to bite or coffee perhaps?
Ang-moh: Ah, I was actually, how observant of you.
Diaoz... huh? I was like o.O?? He took some time to look at the decor inside the outlet before deciding on a seat in the alfresco area.
Ang-moh: I've never been to tcc before, it looks great but how come nobody's here and everybody's at starbucks which is absolute rubbish?
Me (smiling): Probably because they're a global brand and we charge a 10% service fee.
Turns out he was from Britain... haha.. guess the brits arent cut out for coffee, he settled for our Hawiian Breeze instead... Stick to the tea, old chap!
Yesterday just as i left for work, i checked my mailbox and to my delight found 2 letters addressed to me. One was from Starhub, the S$20 Tangs voucher i redeemed and the other letter was from MINDEF. "Ah.. finally, my enlistment letter." I proceeded to calmly open (ok, didnt really open it calmly rather, frantically is a better word for it...) the letter from MINDEF and i scanned the letter for dates.
You are required to report at 0800 hrs in your PT attire on 18/05/06
WTF?!? 18th May? Just a mere 2 weeks away, as I tried to take in what has just happened, I scanned across the header, Enlistment Act, Chapter 93 - Further Reporting Act. Fuck, i made a wrong assumption... they're telling me to go for another medical checkup... not my enlistment...
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
*Groanz* arrrggggggghhhhhhh.... another 4 hours of meaningless time wasted on the bloody medical checkup???!?!? I proceeded to call CMPB up and clarify on this issue, after wasting at least 10 minutes on hold listening to 98.7 FM, i finally got thru and the kind nice lady at the end of the line proceeded to inform me in a more than casual manner that this was routine and i may have been called back for a second medical checkup because I might have missed some steps in the first checkup or some of the information was unclear...
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
oh fuck it...
Met up with fox for lunch (well, he just sat there and drank his Crysanthenum tea, he ate at home) then proceeded to Novena square to reece for his Nippon addidas jacket. Turned out to be a fruitless trip and proceeded to Plaza Sing as I prepared to go to work while he decided to mill around Plaza Sing waiting for the monk to come...
A couple of days, a cauasian gentleman dropped by at tcc and I approached him asking if i could help. I could see that he was scanning the cake fridge and was looking at the take away sandwiches and cakes so I proceeded to ask if he was looking for something to eat or drink...
Me: Good afternoon Sir. May I help?
Ang-moh: Actually, I was just looking around.
Me: Perhaps you're looking for something to bite or coffee perhaps?
Ang-moh: Ah, I was actually, how observant of you.
Diaoz... huh? I was like o.O?? He took some time to look at the decor inside the outlet before deciding on a seat in the alfresco area.
Ang-moh: I've never been to tcc before, it looks great but how come nobody's here and everybody's at starbucks which is absolute rubbish?
Me (smiling): Probably because they're a global brand and we charge a 10% service fee.
Turns out he was from Britain... haha.. guess the brits arent cut out for coffee, he settled for our Hawiian Breeze instead... Stick to the tea, old chap!
Friday, May 05, 2006
[040506] Siansation
I had the day off during monday and tuesday and strangely enough, i felt so darn bored and restless at home... perhaps, im too used to my routine of going to work already but when working sometimes also really feel sickening.. haha.. i cant seem to make up my mind... monk summarises everything in a single simple straight to the point sentence,"Work, you complain, no work, you also complain, what you want???"
Haha, kindda true... but sometimes, when working also get all the shit... sickening, people are motivated by recognition and appreciation (especially in the F & B line, a simple please, smile and thank you goes a LOOOOOOOOOOONnnnnnnnnngggg way.. trust me on this) Friend of mine coverting to part-time from full time... and might be quitting soon.. apparently because of the management.. oh well... shit happens on a daily basis... Not everyone's cut out for the F & B line...
My interviewer asked me during my interview what qualities would I need to work in tcc? My answer was, "an innate desire to please and serve" Sounds very politically correct huh? haha... it might sound that way, but i seriously think that for anyone to succeed in this industry, the above attitude is a must or at least have some form of it... otherwise, it's easy to be disheartened and fed up with all the kind of shit one has to put up...
Dont get me wrong, im still fine working at tcc, experienced some shit every now and then but nahz, it passes... afterall, cant exactly expect everything to be smooth sailing all the time..
Working again tomorrow and on saturday... Polling day! I think the PAP's gonna win in the elections again... cant see them losing seriously when i look at the highlights of the elections on the telly or on the newspaper... the issues that the opposition tries to bring up... erm... no substance behind them? oh well... my view on the elections is simple. PAP's been in power since we've been independent, they've managed to turn a small island nation with no form of natural resources to a first world country (well, supposedly we're a first world country) to one of the safest, cleanest, modern and corruption free country in South East Asia and possibly Asia and beyond...
The logic is simple: Be thankful. And if it aint broke, why fix it?
I had the day off during monday and tuesday and strangely enough, i felt so darn bored and restless at home... perhaps, im too used to my routine of going to work already but when working sometimes also really feel sickening.. haha.. i cant seem to make up my mind... monk summarises everything in a single simple straight to the point sentence,"Work, you complain, no work, you also complain, what you want???"
Haha, kindda true... but sometimes, when working also get all the shit... sickening, people are motivated by recognition and appreciation (especially in the F & B line, a simple please, smile and thank you goes a LOOOOOOOOOOONnnnnnnnnngggg way.. trust me on this) Friend of mine coverting to part-time from full time... and might be quitting soon.. apparently because of the management.. oh well... shit happens on a daily basis... Not everyone's cut out for the F & B line...
My interviewer asked me during my interview what qualities would I need to work in tcc? My answer was, "an innate desire to please and serve" Sounds very politically correct huh? haha... it might sound that way, but i seriously think that for anyone to succeed in this industry, the above attitude is a must or at least have some form of it... otherwise, it's easy to be disheartened and fed up with all the kind of shit one has to put up...
Dont get me wrong, im still fine working at tcc, experienced some shit every now and then but nahz, it passes... afterall, cant exactly expect everything to be smooth sailing all the time..
Working again tomorrow and on saturday... Polling day! I think the PAP's gonna win in the elections again... cant see them losing seriously when i look at the highlights of the elections on the telly or on the newspaper... the issues that the opposition tries to bring up... erm... no substance behind them? oh well... my view on the elections is simple. PAP's been in power since we've been independent, they've managed to turn a small island nation with no form of natural resources to a first world country (well, supposedly we're a first world country) to one of the safest, cleanest, modern and corruption free country in South East Asia and possibly Asia and beyond...
The logic is simple: Be thankful. And if it aint broke, why fix it?