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Friday, October 26, 2007
[261007] Too late to apologize
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
that it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoaa ohhh...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet... off the ground...
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
that it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoaa ohhh...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet... off the ground...
Monday, October 22, 2007
[221007] Damn Brits cant do anything right~~
What was to become an epic treble for British sportsmen instead became a disaster as all 3 challenges fell flat with egg on their faces as they pack their backs and prepares to go back home to the misty, gloomy and rainy island they call home.
1st: After 5 successive 3-0 victories the 3 Lions proceeded to lose 2-1 to Russia to throw the qualification race for Euro 2008 into doubt. This would have cemented what we FOOTBALL fans knew all along, Stevie McClaren knows nuts about management. Perhaps he should have been paying attention and followed what all former Assistant Managers have known - The step up into management especially Internationally aint easy. Now, England could be looking at not qualifying for Euro 08 at all, in such cases where your own destiny isnt in your own 2 hands anymore. Usually the worst case scenario happens. I hardly doubt that Russia would struggle against Andorra and Macedonia. Stepping down would be the most grace saving gesture from McClaren. Eriksson's shite but at least we qualified for the last 3 international tournaments and managed to get through to the quarters in each one. There aint a better time than now to say goodbye, Stevie. Na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na, hey hey hey, good byeeeee.... *waves*
2nd: After an emphatic win over their historical rivals from across the channel. English Rugby boys fell at the final hurdle to lose against the South African Springbok. Johnny sadly failed to deliver and the defending champs goes out at the final hurdle. What a sad sad sad day for English sport.
3rd: Lastly, rookie debutant Lewis Hamilton COULD have been the youngest grand prix driver and COULD have won the championship in his debut season but for an excellent and near flawless victory by Kimi Raikkonen in the Brazillian grand prix. He could have clinched it if he finished third but as the sporting gods would have it, it didnt happen. Hamilton finished a lowly 7th to end up joint 2nd with his arch nemesis Fernando Alonso who ironically finished in the 3rd place that he would have needed to win the championship. what a joke.
Murphy's Law evidently strikes again. ANYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG WILL GO WRONG.
Came across an article from last week's New Paper. Murphy's Law @ work.
1. The more shit you put up with, the more shit you'll get.
2. Never be irreplaceable. If you cant be replaced, you cant be promoted.
3. You can get anywhere you want if you look serious and have a clipboard.
4. A pat on the back is only a couple of centimetres from a kick in the ass.
5. Eat a live toad first thing in the morning and nothing else at work later can be worse.
I LOVE MURPHY's LAW... They define our very existence in this world, giving us explanations for everything.
What was to become an epic treble for British sportsmen instead became a disaster as all 3 challenges fell flat with egg on their faces as they pack their backs and prepares to go back home to the misty, gloomy and rainy island they call home.
1st: After 5 successive 3-0 victories the 3 Lions proceeded to lose 2-1 to Russia to throw the qualification race for Euro 2008 into doubt. This would have cemented what we FOOTBALL fans knew all along, Stevie McClaren knows nuts about management. Perhaps he should have been paying attention and followed what all former Assistant Managers have known - The step up into management especially Internationally aint easy. Now, England could be looking at not qualifying for Euro 08 at all, in such cases where your own destiny isnt in your own 2 hands anymore. Usually the worst case scenario happens. I hardly doubt that Russia would struggle against Andorra and Macedonia. Stepping down would be the most grace saving gesture from McClaren. Eriksson's shite but at least we qualified for the last 3 international tournaments and managed to get through to the quarters in each one. There aint a better time than now to say goodbye, Stevie. Na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na, hey hey hey, good byeeeee.... *waves*
2nd: After an emphatic win over their historical rivals from across the channel. English Rugby boys fell at the final hurdle to lose against the South African Springbok. Johnny sadly failed to deliver and the defending champs goes out at the final hurdle. What a sad sad sad day for English sport.
3rd: Lastly, rookie debutant Lewis Hamilton COULD have been the youngest grand prix driver and COULD have won the championship in his debut season but for an excellent and near flawless victory by Kimi Raikkonen in the Brazillian grand prix. He could have clinched it if he finished third but as the sporting gods would have it, it didnt happen. Hamilton finished a lowly 7th to end up joint 2nd with his arch nemesis Fernando Alonso who ironically finished in the 3rd place that he would have needed to win the championship. what a joke.
Murphy's Law evidently strikes again. ANYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG WILL GO WRONG.
Came across an article from last week's New Paper. Murphy's Law @ work.
1. The more shit you put up with, the more shit you'll get.
2. Never be irreplaceable. If you cant be replaced, you cant be promoted.
3. You can get anywhere you want if you look serious and have a clipboard.
4. A pat on the back is only a couple of centimetres from a kick in the ass.
5. Eat a live toad first thing in the morning and nothing else at work later can be worse.
I LOVE MURPHY's LAW... They define our very existence in this world, giving us explanations for everything.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
[161007] what a waste of a day
The weekend was a bummer, didnt get to enjoy it but spent the weekend working then rushing to book in, sleeping for 4 hours before waking up in the dead of the morning to do sai kang all the way in changi, came back to camp went home slept for 2 hours before booking in again to carry out my CDI duties.
Sunday night booking in pissed me off real bad, Yeo and me decided to take a cab down to camp from CCK so we proceeded to try and flag a cab down, which we managed to do only after 40 minutes. Singapore has over 22,000 cabs and we managed to flag one down only after 40 minutes, who wouldnt be pissed? Through this event however, i've discovered new sections of murphy's law.
Murphy's Law governing flagging of cabs
1) The opposite side of the road from where you're waiting for a cab will always have more available cabs driving past.
2) Empty cabs would suddenly be on call as they're driving towards where you're standing even though you've been frantically waving at them from the moment they turned onto the street you're waiting at.
3) When you decide to cross the road to try and flag a cab, the side of the street that you were already on would have empty cabs driving past.
Yeo thinks that the uncles who drives the taxis all congregate somewhere at certain times of the day especially during peak hours just to piss the commuters off. I however think that we just need more cabs on the road. It's ridiculous hearing about taxi drivers complaining about how hard it is to pick up passengers when i keep on seeing people waiting for inhumane amounts of time before they can get a cab.
So today was my off day, compensation for having to do the sai kang on sunday... wanted to sleep in late but body refused to obey and i dragged myself out of bed at 0700hrs, surfed the net abit before i quickly grew bored... paged a couple of guys but all were busy or at sch... what to do?
Headed down to cineleisure, caught the 10:45 Resident Evil:Extinction, finished the show, went straight back to the ticketing counter and bought the tix for the 12:30 Alpha Dog. Finished at ard 1430 thought of catching the 17:00 I now pronounce you chuck and larry but too tired and hungry... wandered around before stopping at Fish N Co. @ Paragon for lunch. Tried something other than the seafood platter or fish n chips. Had the Prawn Fettucini pasta in chilli sauce with clam chowder. Wasnt too bad but the clam chowder from marche is way way better, i think even the clam chowder from long john's tasted better... the pasta was nice but i dont think the prawns were very fresh.. the prawns werent exactly very firm.. kinnda squishy... caught the train back and concussed all the way til yishun... that was my day... kinnda boring... what a day to waste my off day on...
Celine Dion with Bee Gees - Immortality
So this is who I am,
And this is all I know,
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
The spark that makes the power grow
And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only,
And I must follow on the road that lies ahead,
And I won't let my heart control my head,
But you are my only
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
And I know what I've got to be
Immor-tality
I make my journey through eternity
I keep the memory of you and me inside
Fulfil your destiny,
Is there within the child,
My storm will never end,
My fate is on the wind,
The king of hearts, the joker's wild,
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
I'll make them all remember me
Cos I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through,
But you are my only
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play,
Hand over my heart I'll find my way,
I will make them give to me
Immor-tality (oh baby)
There is a vision and a fire in me (ohh)
I keep the memory of you and me, inside
We don't say goodbye
We don't say goodbye
With all my love for you
And what else we may do
We don't say, goodbye
The weekend was a bummer, didnt get to enjoy it but spent the weekend working then rushing to book in, sleeping for 4 hours before waking up in the dead of the morning to do sai kang all the way in changi, came back to camp went home slept for 2 hours before booking in again to carry out my CDI duties.
Sunday night booking in pissed me off real bad, Yeo and me decided to take a cab down to camp from CCK so we proceeded to try and flag a cab down, which we managed to do only after 40 minutes. Singapore has over 22,000 cabs and we managed to flag one down only after 40 minutes, who wouldnt be pissed? Through this event however, i've discovered new sections of murphy's law.
Murphy's Law governing flagging of cabs
1) The opposite side of the road from where you're waiting for a cab will always have more available cabs driving past.
2) Empty cabs would suddenly be on call as they're driving towards where you're standing even though you've been frantically waving at them from the moment they turned onto the street you're waiting at.
3) When you decide to cross the road to try and flag a cab, the side of the street that you were already on would have empty cabs driving past.
Yeo thinks that the uncles who drives the taxis all congregate somewhere at certain times of the day especially during peak hours just to piss the commuters off. I however think that we just need more cabs on the road. It's ridiculous hearing about taxi drivers complaining about how hard it is to pick up passengers when i keep on seeing people waiting for inhumane amounts of time before they can get a cab.
So today was my off day, compensation for having to do the sai kang on sunday... wanted to sleep in late but body refused to obey and i dragged myself out of bed at 0700hrs, surfed the net abit before i quickly grew bored... paged a couple of guys but all were busy or at sch... what to do?
Headed down to cineleisure, caught the 10:45 Resident Evil:Extinction, finished the show, went straight back to the ticketing counter and bought the tix for the 12:30 Alpha Dog. Finished at ard 1430 thought of catching the 17:00 I now pronounce you chuck and larry but too tired and hungry... wandered around before stopping at Fish N Co. @ Paragon for lunch. Tried something other than the seafood platter or fish n chips. Had the Prawn Fettucini pasta in chilli sauce with clam chowder. Wasnt too bad but the clam chowder from marche is way way better, i think even the clam chowder from long john's tasted better... the pasta was nice but i dont think the prawns were very fresh.. the prawns werent exactly very firm.. kinnda squishy... caught the train back and concussed all the way til yishun... that was my day... kinnda boring... what a day to waste my off day on...
Celine Dion with Bee Gees - Immortality
So this is who I am,
And this is all I know,
And I must choose to live,
For all that I can give,
The spark that makes the power grow
And I will stand for my dream if I can,
Symbol of my faith in who I am,
But you are my only,
And I must follow on the road that lies ahead,
And I won't let my heart control my head,
But you are my only
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
And I know what I've got to be
Immor-tality
I make my journey through eternity
I keep the memory of you and me inside
Fulfil your destiny,
Is there within the child,
My storm will never end,
My fate is on the wind,
The king of hearts, the joker's wild,
We don't say goodbye,
We don't say goodbye,
I'll make them all remember me
Cos I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through,
But you are my only
I'm sorry I don't have a role for love to play,
Hand over my heart I'll find my way,
I will make them give to me
Immor-tality (oh baby)
There is a vision and a fire in me (ohh)
I keep the memory of you and me, inside
We don't say goodbye
We don't say goodbye
With all my love for you
And what else we may do
We don't say, goodbye
Saturday, October 13, 2007
[131007] Reba McEntire & Kelly Clarkson
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
[101007] Free fallin' and Fallin' free
The newspaper today featured an article that has shown that clinically speaking, it IS possible to die of a broken heart. Mainly due to the fact that when one is depressed or emotionally stressed, it affects the body as well and these long term stress factors contribute to an sharp increase of over 30% more likelihood for the stress-ee to suffer from heart related illnesses and diseases.
In another related segment, women who do not communicate their feelings and keep them bottled up when in a martial spat are also more likely to drop dead. Ok, drop dead's a bit too direct, it states that such women are more likely to suffer from heart related illnesses and diseases than other women who talk to and resolve differences with their spouses when fighting. And interestingly, the report also noted that men who keep their feelings bottled up shows no change in likelihood of contracting heart related illnesses and diseases. The explanation? Most men who keep their feelings bottled up do so to keep the peace as surveyed from the over 600 couples who participated in the test.
Lessons learnt:
Gals shld stop the cold war thing, talk to guys more often.
Guys dang! keeping quiet does work! Let her finish her emo moments then kiss and make up.
Okay, i've already been sidetracked from what i wanted to blog about, which is: Since it's clinically possible to die from a broken heart, is it possible to die from a du-lan heart?
NOTE: The state of being pissed off/angry/upset as quoted by the urban dictionary
I'm du-lan of my OC, my CSM, my vocation, my work, NS and my life in general. So if the medical findings as reported is true, being du-lan would have an adverse effect on my health and well being in general which would in fact mean that the gah-men is responsible for any heart related illness and diseases i may or may not develop in the future.
Coming weekend burned due to trial run for the upcoming 15km REAL RUN organised by HomeTeamNS and due to the fact that im scheduled to work on saturday, afterwhich i need to book in by 2359 and moving off to Changi at 0400hrs the following sunday and coming back around afternoon before continuing my duties as Duty Instructor for sunday evening. WOW! a whole weekend spent in camp, how exciting. yay~
Original plan was to stay in camp til thursday but had to cut the plans short as i couldnt bear to stay another night in camp. Well, it isnt really that bad but i think i'll take the 1hr+ journey to and fro and the waking up at 0530 hrs over staying in anyday. It's just the feeling of sian-ness while one is at camp that compels many a good fella to go crazy.
Tom Petty - Free Falling
She's a good girl, loves her mama
loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
loves horses and her boyfriend too
It's a long day livin' in Reseda
there's a freeway runnin' through the yard
and I'm a bad boy, 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
All the vampires walkin' through the valley
move west down Ventura Blvd.
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for awhile
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
The newspaper today featured an article that has shown that clinically speaking, it IS possible to die of a broken heart. Mainly due to the fact that when one is depressed or emotionally stressed, it affects the body as well and these long term stress factors contribute to an sharp increase of over 30% more likelihood for the stress-ee to suffer from heart related illnesses and diseases.
In another related segment, women who do not communicate their feelings and keep them bottled up when in a martial spat are also more likely to drop dead. Ok, drop dead's a bit too direct, it states that such women are more likely to suffer from heart related illnesses and diseases than other women who talk to and resolve differences with their spouses when fighting. And interestingly, the report also noted that men who keep their feelings bottled up shows no change in likelihood of contracting heart related illnesses and diseases. The explanation? Most men who keep their feelings bottled up do so to keep the peace as surveyed from the over 600 couples who participated in the test.
Lessons learnt:
Gals shld stop the cold war thing, talk to guys more often.
Guys dang! keeping quiet does work! Let her finish her emo moments then kiss and make up.
Okay, i've already been sidetracked from what i wanted to blog about, which is: Since it's clinically possible to die from a broken heart, is it possible to die from a du-lan heart?
NOTE: The state of being pissed off/angry/upset as quoted by the urban dictionary
I'm du-lan of my OC, my CSM, my vocation, my work, NS and my life in general. So if the medical findings as reported is true, being du-lan would have an adverse effect on my health and well being in general which would in fact mean that the gah-men is responsible for any heart related illness and diseases i may or may not develop in the future.
Coming weekend burned due to trial run for the upcoming 15km REAL RUN organised by HomeTeamNS and due to the fact that im scheduled to work on saturday, afterwhich i need to book in by 2359 and moving off to Changi at 0400hrs the following sunday and coming back around afternoon before continuing my duties as Duty Instructor for sunday evening. WOW! a whole weekend spent in camp, how exciting. yay~
Original plan was to stay in camp til thursday but had to cut the plans short as i couldnt bear to stay another night in camp. Well, it isnt really that bad but i think i'll take the 1hr+ journey to and fro and the waking up at 0530 hrs over staying in anyday. It's just the feeling of sian-ness while one is at camp that compels many a good fella to go crazy.
Tom Petty - Free Falling
She's a good girl, loves her mama
loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
loves horses and her boyfriend too
It's a long day livin' in Reseda
there's a freeway runnin' through the yard
and I'm a bad boy, 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
All the vampires walkin' through the valley
move west down Ventura Blvd.
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for awhile
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'