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Sunday, December 30, 2007

[301207] T-Minus 48hrs

2007 draws to an end and 2008 beckons, quietly creeping on us over the approaching horizon. What will it entail? Nobody ever knows does it for our futures are always clouded and shrouded, lost in the transition of time and space vortex if you believe in that mambo jumbo. What I do know for certain is that i'll ORD in 2008. That's a given fact.

No new year's resolutions for me as usual, the simple reason being that i never ever seem to be able to keep them so why waste all that time, effort and not to mention paper just to jot them down? I look back at 2007 and sadly realise that it's an uneventful year, nothing much had changed, nothing much had happened. No real significant life changing event has shook my life as i know it. Just another 365 days that passed by, draggingly painful, silent and quiet.

I look forward to 2008 but I am fearful of it as well. The uncertainty of what I am to become frightens me and I am lost without a clue as to where i shall stand in life right now or 5 years down the road. Count each step as I take them and hope they'll turn out alright but then again... hope... what a silly notion. The end of a long year doesnt mean the end of this year's shit but rather a brand new year with more shit to deal with.

Too many clichés are used in our daily lives. People who use them too frequently ought to be shot. That's my opinion.



Rascal Flatts - Stand

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you’ll be alright
You’ll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand,
Then you stand

Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up

Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand,
Yeah then you stand.

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Ooohhh

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand,
Then you stand
Yeah then you stand.
Yeah then you stand.
Yeah baby
ohhhhhhhhh
ohhhhhhhhh
ohhhhhhhhh
ooohhhhhhh
then you stand

turion at 19:07

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

[261207] ears burning, pulse quickens

I think i just made a fool of out myself.

What's done is done.

I await the final judgment.


turion at 21:54

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

[251207] tis' the season of reels

as of today, i've caught 4 movies this month... Alvin & the Chipmunks, The Golden Compass, National Treasure 2: Book of Secrets and I am Legend, with a possible 5th later on, seeing that i got a cathay movie voucher redeemed from some reward thingy... caught I AM LEGEND yesterday with the same group of ppl with additional 6 ppl whom we call the 'NBSS family'

The show started slowly and would remain so throughout the film, the film is punctuated by the occasional action filled scenes which were few and far in between and the few heart stopping moments which pretty much scared the girls. erm, ladies, it aint THAT scary. The trailer painted I AM LEGEND as an action horror genre show akin to Resident Evil but it'll sorely disappoint the action junkees. The main premises of the movie revolves around the lead character played by Will Smith who i think did a brilliant job in portraying Robert Neville as he struggled with the terms of the apocalyptic disaster that has befallen the human race. loneliness, insanity and boredom are the other enemies as he fought to survive in an empty new york city. Hunting, gathering and surviving while trying in futile to come up with a cure against the mutant KV virus. The flashbacks provided a key insight in what really happened pre-dating the years the story began from. The ending was a real let down but overall the film only deepens my desire to read the book by Richard Matheson on which the film is based on.

I AM LEGEND - 4 popcorns out of 5

I think guests at marche need to be handed cards that help them in the pronunciation of certain food items we carry in our menu. This has a 2 fold benefit. Firstly, the guests wont feel like fools when they pronounce the word wrongly and secondly, the team members serving them wont be actually making fun of them. Some words that we possibly can help them with.

Salmon Roesti pronounced as Sal-Mon Ro-Sti. Not SMELLMON Roti
Mushroom Ragout pronounced as Mush-Room Ra-Goo Not Mushroom RAG-OUT
Crepes pronounced as Creep Not CRAP, CRIK, CRAK or whatother variations you got

A
merry Christmas to all who visits my blog regularly to read about my mundane life... cheers... may the holiday season bring you all much joy and fulfillment...


turion at 14:16

Friday, December 21, 2007

[211207] 39 / 72

work over the next 3 days, likely to be from 1200 - 0100, just thinking of work already sickens me... should have just stuck to my usual Saturday 12 hour work schedule but NOoooo... i had to go and tell Jensen that i wanted to work.. argghhh... really regretting it now.. just thinking of working continously for 3 straight days is tiring... dammit.

but it's a measure against spending money on off days... erm... i work more so i can earn more so i can dine and watch movies alone more? hahaha.. i know, that's a fucked up train of thought... eh.. i really need the dough for my upcoming expenses. Still have yet to buy my suit for cousin grace's wedding... erm, perhaps should ask her to sponsor me since she asked me to be best man.. haha... $283.00 for the top alone without pants, shirt and shoes calculated into the final costs and my wallet is most likely looking at an extended period in the ICU... again...

just looking forward to christmas day... not for the gifts which i wont be receiving but for the blissful and joyful moments when i can sleep like the dead. ah... the simple pleasures in life... re-watched an old video... Because im a girl by KISS. Never fails to stir my emotions... darn nice video, having such a pretty gal as the lead didnt hurt at all... nicest music video ever...



turion at 23:36

Thursday, December 20, 2007



Dashboard Confessional - Stolen


We watch the season
Pull up it’s own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well

Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well

you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We
All
Look
Like
We
Feel

you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart

turion at 13:03

Monday, December 17, 2007





Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore - Way back into love


I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it true without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

turion at 22:04

Sunday, December 16, 2007

[161207] Long ass weekend...

Caught Alvin and the Chipmunks on friday with clan. The chipmunks were adorable as were their singing but after a while, it's just plain annoying and irritating. It aint just annoying and irritating it's those kind that get under your skin kinda irritating... Plot was a wash out and ending kinnda sucked. But then again, if you were watching this in the first place, i seriously doubt you were anticipating an Oscar winning movie were you?


Alvin and the Chipmunks - 2 popcorns out of 5

Estb. since 2000

There's a saying that goes that a woman looks her darn best on her wedding day. It's freaking true even though yesterday wasnt miss yee's wedding day but rather a wedding reception for her friends, classmates and colleagues here in singapore, she looked absolutely radiant and pretty. It was almost a freaking alumni gathering seeing that there must be at least 100 - 200 students, past and present just gathered there to congratulate her. A testament to her popularity as a lecturer. Loved & adored by the masses.. haha..

Had dinner and chilled at Coffee Club in Habourfront, caught up with everyone. Just a nice simple class gathering. How much more enjoyable can it get? Headed back to yishun to catch The Golden Compass. Some concepts of the show are interesting. I personally find the idea of a demon endearing and interesting. But the show seemed rather rushed and the ending seems a bit of a anti-climatic. This said, look carefully at the ice bears if you watch the movie. does it remind you of something? Reminded me of the coca-cola campaign a few years back.. i swear them bears look alike!




turion at 11:59

Monday, December 10, 2007

[101207] 4 days of civilian-hood

been wanting to blog about this cheque i came across while in camp... it is like any other ordinary cheque until u see the amount stated... geez... so how would the cheque be cashed? would it even allowed to be cashed in at the bank? freakin' hilarious... one word - DUMBASS! Ladies & gents, always ALWAYS check what you write down on your cheque... dont be like this dumbass here.. freakin moron...

what the hell is nine & cents ninety only???

Sunday was a long day... went to TTSH to get my foot looked at... been hurtin' for the entire week after the marathon, been trying to bear with it but after work on saturday couldnt take it any longer and away i went. Why TTSH? for economical reasons of course, always head to the nearest govt hospital when you're armed with an 11B - FREE MEDICAL TREATMENT. Anyways, turned out to be nothing much, just a strain. Doc was kind enough to give me 4 days of MC. yep, 4 days... power lah, Dr. Goh. Thank you very much.

Met up with some CIs for dinner at chomp chomp, only my 3rd or 4th time there to eat... nice, but portions are very small.. tried some egg beancurd dessert thingy but wasnt very impressed with the taste. Ended up singing karaoke at yishun safra til 0100hrs. A fruitful sunday spent i would say...

rotted away my first day, stayed at home the entire time... wanna go out but there isnt any places to go to... wanna watch movies but no nice movies to watch... boring boring life but still it's waaaaayyyy better than to be couped up in camp. 3 more days before heading back to camp. Anyone wanna meet up for chow or coffee? i'm free til thursday!!!! ~~~~that was desperate...


turion at 18:21

Monday, December 03, 2007

[031207] Off day routines

In what is quickly becoming a routine, i caught a movie at cineleisure (again) and ate at someplace fancy (again) on my off day (again) ensuring my wallet ended up in the ICU (again) . I've given up hope of managing to find friend(s) for these kind of endeavours so i decided to do the sensible thing - Save my SMSes and not bother anyone by asking.

After a rejuvenating and somewhat tiring 15 hours of sleep (142
0 hrs - 0530 hrs), i woke up still feeling sore and achy. surfed the net, checked the mail, read the news til 9ish and watched Jeff Dunham videos til 11ish before heading out. Undecided on where to eat but eventually settled for Paragon, wanted to try out Carnivours@vivocity but the idea of traveling all the way south bothered me.

Ended up at Spaggedies nestled in the corner of the basement in Paragons. Quiet and very relaxed atmosphere but was slightly put off by the less than charming service staff. When you're from the service line, you tend to pick up on minor details... like staff not smiling, staff not informing you of soup of the day, staff not recomm
ending items they want to upsell, staff not asking if i want ice water, staff not being attentive, staff not informing you of credit card promotions yada yada yada etc. The list can go on and on. Then again, I could be just picky and on more than one occasion in the past, i have been guilty of the above mentioned crimes. What can i say? If we really care for the customer, we'd send them somewhere better.

Looked through the menu and was quite awed with the amount of seemingly mouth watering delicacies awaiting my salivating oral cavity. Craved for steak as well as an all too familiar calling for pasta so i settled for somethin
g that would satisfy both my cravings. Crayfish and Tenderloin combo. magnifique!

The presentation wasnt much to be desired but it tasted WAY better than it looked. The tenderloin was grilled medium rare, the way i like my beef and wasnt too dry or tough though it tasted abit bland (no pepper or salt?), the crayfish was quite succulent and the melted cheese definitely added much taste to the freshness of the seafood, the tomato sauce and tomato chunks added to the overall flavour. The accompanying olio aglio linguine was a delight, with the garlic and parsley adding much punch to the dish, sadly it wasnt spicy enough for my taste. The meal turned out to be very filling though i had misgivings about it earlier on due to the misconception i had when i looked at the picture of the ordered dish in the menu. After a nice meal like that, it seemed only right that i had dessert to go along. Quickly settled for Italian Chocolate cake with ice cream and tea.
Once again, the presentation was minimal or more likely to be non-existent but then again, perhaps they were going for the minimalist look. The dessert turned out to be a total let down, the ice-cream was only so so with the chocolate cake disappointing severely. The only saving face was that the fudge was good while it's warm. I had better hot fudge cake with ice cream elsewhere... not a bad place to dine and a couple of items caught my eye, definitely going back to try again some other time.

Headed to Kino to waste some time and helped settle my lunch down but ended up buying 2 books when i walked out. Caught the movie 30 days of night, a graphic novel adaptation with the same title. More and more of these graphic novels adaptations these days... maybe the screenwriters are running out of fresh ideas for movies... Not much to critique about, lotsa blood, lotsa screaming, a pretty linear plotline and predicable ending. Of course, there were going to be survivors and of course, Evan (Josh Harnett) the leading character was going to sacrifice himself to save the others. DUH!!!

2 popcorns of out 5

turion at 18:04

[031207] Marathon aftermath & thoughts

One word describes it all now - OUCH.

Note to self: Never trying running a marathon on 1 hour's sleep nor being ill prepared for the race.

At least i got the shirt. Im a proud finisher of 42.195km. I'd like to see you try and take that away from me.


turion at 08:49