damian + turion

[180309] remember, remember the fifth of November

Caught 'V for vendetta' on channel 5 yesterday night for the first time and was surprised that it was actually a pretty decent movie. I always had the notion when the film first came out years ago that it was a poor movie to watch despite the rave reviews by many of my friends, turned out that it was a pretty good movie with a rather dark and Gothic feel to the entire film set in an alternate history.

Caught a movie along the similar lines today, 'Watchmen' by DC comics, the major rival of Marvel comics. For the uninitiated, DC comics produced the likes of Batman, Green Latern etc while the likes of Iron Man, X-Men belonged to the rival Marvel Comics. Unlike the superhero flicks produced by Marvel comics, this film was anything but family oriented or friendly with clear 'good triumphs over evil' overtunes, instead, it was more adult, x-rated, mature, dark and gory filled as the 'heroes' in the film not only exhibit the only virtues expected of in superheroes but also a darker side to them. For those who watched it and didnt pay close attention to the dialouge, they could be easily lost in the plot that traverses freely between the past and present making hard for some to follow along. An enjoyable movie with wonderful scripted characters and rich dialogue along with some kick ass fight sequences with much blood and gore, 2 things you dont usually expect in a superhero flick.

Reported at 1st Division for pre-ICT briefing, as i expected, it was indeed a waste of time as the time spent waiting for the briefing to start was actually longer than the actual briefing itself. To make matters worse, the briefing was pretty basic and was pretty much redundant, they could have just mailed us the ICT orders along with written instructions on general instructions and infomation. The LTA that gave the breifing looked lost and for most of the extremely short briefing was basically mumbling to himself. WTF?!? what a complete waste of time and to think because of this, my JNB-CPT flt was cancelled. Thanks ar, SCDF.

Realised once again that one should be more realistic in his goals and even when dreaming that dreams should be realistic instead of reaching for the unattainable,the unreachable and the impossible. That's when you get your hopes high and as always, hope is the first step on the road to disappointment and ultimately leads to the inevitable conclusion of failure and the feeling of defeat stings harder than ever before binding one to a never ending cycle of self pity and indifference.

turion at 22:28

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

hmmm, hard to judge whether this is a fact or fiction...

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

hmmm, quite true regarding the above statement.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

true again.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

this is the most untrue of all the statements regarding this personality test. flirt and behave seductively? hell is more likely to freeze over before you'll see turion ever exhibiting such behaviour.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

this is only half true, i do view education as important, but the working hard and learning as much as i can part is kinnda off, put off by my innate procrastination.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

hmmm... hard to judge

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

very true.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

need i say more? this is the pinnacle of my beliefs and self-being

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

partly true, not always full of energy and more often than not, i think i lack confidence but one thing is for sure, my moods swings.

turion at 14:43

Thursday, March 12, 2009

[120309] turion the old of heart

i feel old... not physically... im feelin old mentally and emotionally... just feel so burdened and disheartened... have no idea where all these feelings are coming from but i feel as though im aging faster than im supposed to be. im just tired i guess... physically, mentally and emotionally drained... actually, to say im drained would be a wrong statement, it feels more as though im devoid of feelings, indifference on my part...

i guess it really hit me hard this feeling of age when i was sitting at the void deck drinking beer and eating peanuts with redfox last night, somehow the scene seems comical bordering on the rediculous but there we were, a 25 and 24 year old, doing what we've seen middle aged men do at void decks since the HDB flats were built in the 60s.

if boredom could kill, i would be dead a thousand times over. I've been rotting at home for the last 5 days... doing nothing but gyming, eating, sleeping and surfing net. some of you may view this as being enjoyable but to me, it was pure torture, i guess i enjoy being occupied and having things to do even if it's work. I just cant stand being idle and not having any plans for the day and instead waste it by just rotting at home. sighz.. there's another block of 10 days / standby where once again, i fear, boredom would overwhelm me.

Im allocated leave next month. 1 whole week. the mere thought of it sickens me. Im terrified by the prospects of doing nothing and rotting at home. sighz...

turion at 17:21

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

[040309] stroke the fire within, patiently, slowly, tenderly

the fire grows within me, stroke it patiently, stroke it consistently but most of all stroke it lovingly. let my will grow like iron which goes through the arduous testament of flames and heat before it becomes strong. let my will too be like iron in which i can depend on to move on in trying times and desolate moments. let my will personify me, to be one of a strong and virtuous character. Strength does not come from physical capacity, it comes from an indomitable will.

"watch your thoughts, for they become words.

watch your words, for they become actions.

watch your actions, for they become habits.

watch your habits, for they become character.

watch your character, for it becomes your destiny." ~unknown author

met up with triple niners for a dim sum lunch and dinner at indonesian joint in Lucky plaza. It's always nice to meet up with batchies after such a long time away as we talked about our lives thus far and how work has been and share experiences and bitch about nasty superiors or incidents. Time waits for no one and our endless monotony of work has already gave way to 6 months. 6 months since we've joined the company, how time flies when you're out in the working world.

I still remember the excruiating days of National Slavery whilst serving in the MLR-CDF (inside joke) where everyday was a day filled with despair and hopelessness as i dragged myself miserably out of bed at 5 am, report to work at 7am and leave only at 6 pm. Those were the days of cruel exploitation. Sanity was maintained (barely) only through the companionship of those 20 odd of us who similary were in the same fate, endured the same shit everyday, went home happy and woke up barely hours later, knowing that we were going to be going through the same old BS again.

ah, the good ol' days... reminiscing the good ol' days. Somedays, i wished i was back during those days, my sec sch life, my poly life, even my NS life. Life seemed much simpler then. less worries, less burdens.

世界是黑暗的 - 无色无味无意思

turion at 10:26

Yesterday's memories

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